...e princess diaries...

~a lil' bit o everything...~

2005-12-31T23:59:00.000+08:00

haven been bloggin 4 e longest time...hence i've decided 2 do a quick runthru o wad

i've been thru since god noes when...

15 November, Tuesday

Chemistry Paper 2 (1 1/2hr) 0800 - 0930

12 November, Saturday

Sure i mabbe in e midst o my A' Levels but its no gd when u've got dis sis @ home who's more interested in her prom nite than O' Levels which she was oso in e midst o n cldn't stop paradin rd e hse in her prom outfit...(o which i paid bout 80 bucks 4 e skirt alone...)since we both cldn't conc anyway...we decided tt we wld head over 2 city plaza which is bout 10mins walk away fr my home n has since become my fav hangout wif my sis since town is kinda faraway when u need 2 get home 2 study...
n guess wad..? I BOUGHT MY GRAD OUTFIT!!!
its not ur conventional kinda dress u'd wear 2 such an official outing but i guess i was influenced by e hk n taipei fashion n wad stars wear 2 their promo events...anyway i was lookin ard 4 a babydoll dress 2 pair it wif e aldo boots i saw e other time i hit town wif meow n fish...so yeah...it fitted e bill...plus its below my budget...juz $48..!
now 2 buy my boots...hhmmzz...

11 November, Friday

General Paper 1 (1 1/2hr) 0800 - 0930General Paper 2 (1 1/2hr) 1000 - 1130

10 November, Thursday

Math Paper 2 (3hr) 0800 - 1100

9 November, Wednesday

Chemistry Paper 3 (2 3/4hr) 0800 - 1045

8 November, Tuesday

Biology Paper 2 (2hr) 0800 - 1000

Math Paper 1 (3hr) 1400 - 1700

1st day o A' Levels...m i prep..?guess i'd say i'm prep ok...now muz go n piah 4 nxt paper le..!

18 October, Tuesday

we no longer had lessons proper in tj le...but 2day we went baq again not 4 lessons...but 4 our Farewell Party...went rd e sch takin pics wif lisa...actually mostly @ e area outside e audi...
entering e audi i found tt e class poster was pasted dere @ e side o e stage...so tt;s wad its 4..!dere was a presentation o e graduating class o 04/05...thot my class wun b rep. in e slideshow...but dere we were up dere wif e rest...den was e performances put up e band, dance...(it was ok...1st time watching it thou i heard dey performed e same piece on teacher's day juz tt i ponned sch tt day...heh...)think e teachers' performance was e most heartfelt...mabbe its bcos dey were lettin their hair-down 4 once instead o e usual 'teacher' demeanor...songs dey sang...quite heart-wrenching...but i didn'y bawl or ath...wet eyes mabbe...
@ e end o said party...(wun really qualify as 1 by my standards...cos its a sit-down party but whoever heard o ppl sitin down during a party unless its part o contest...*diaoz...) ms norsheha made an appeal 2 us wif e P. 4 us 2 attend gradnite...which was @ its lowest turnout in 4eva...subsidies were doled out 2 performing grpz n sports cca ppl 4 their achievements in e yr...tt got me thinking...but i'm not confirming ath ok...
got a msg fr e liz tt ms lee n jiang lao shi wanted 2c e dancers outside e staffrm after e whole farewell...turns out dey wanted 2 giv us a lil' token 4 all our hard work as dancers in our yrs in tj...it was those kinda o mobile fans u carry ard on a hot day...mine was a purple penguin...quite cute but i most prob wun use it juz yet...we'll c...amir was trying 2 psycho me in2 goin 4 gradnite...haha...so we agreed 2 form a table wif e dancers...now my tic costs $65...20 bucks cheaper than e original price due 2 e dance subsidy...
meow had 2 stay 4 her sports ceremony presentation dunno-wad 2gether wif lisa in e audi while fish had 2 head off wif e councilors 2 discuss details pertaining 2 how dey cld help e 29th student council wif GradNite 2005...me was left alone...sumhow i waited under lt1 long enuff 2 go home wif fish...or did i...hhmmzz...(fish cld u help me here...?)

15 October, Saturday

2day O~ne wil b graduating fr Cedar Girls' Secondary School...4yrs o solid education n now its time 2 leave...
mom was working so it was decided tt i go in her place...actually even if my mom went i'd stil go...i've nothing 2 do on a sat morn anyway...
considering tt i'm e family's rep. i naturally had 2 make a grand entrance,,,,sure i woke up early enough 2 c my mom off work...but i took e longest time 2 prep...
top on my list was my nail...dey were looking less than glam so filing was in order,,,,den was e deciding which nail polish 2 wear part...i went wif missha's _________...was waiting 4 e polish 2 dry so i made a mental list o possible outfits 2 wear...dress-code was smart casual but i checked wif peiching ytd n she said tt it was ok 4 me 2 turnup in my-goin-2-town-shopping-gear...N since O~ne specifically said tt i had 2 turn up as 1 o e coolest dresser ard 2day as her frenz wil b watching if i turned up in a less than cool outfit her image wil b ruined...a miniskirt def fit e bill...
e nails were about dry so i went 2 chop-chop bathe...actually it wasn't e bathing bit tt hampered e prep process...it was e sash on e skirt tt i had prob wif...i wanted 2 try wearing e pmk skirt wif e silver sash i bought fr bangkok last yr instead o wearin 2gether wif e accompanyin sash e skirt came wif...well i had a hard time tying e silver sash...n by e time i was done tying it...i decided e sash colour didn't quite go wif e whole outfit...so i had 2 untie it n remove it...all dis took a grand total o 1/2 an hr...(yes tt particular sash wasn't v cooperative so i had a real hard time wif it...)it didn't occur 2 me 2 4get about e whole sash-tying act...i was determined tt e whole outfit had 2 materialise...another 1/2 hr came n went cos i had 2 keep re-tying e original sash...e bow juz looked lopsideded...it was only @ e 6th attempt tt e bow came out rite...finally...but i haven even start on my hair yet plus e huge raging zit on my nose looked way beyond gross...n i supposed 2 reach her sch hall @ 0915...guess i was gonna b late...
finally left home @ 0930...had 2 fake O~ne n say tt i was on my way when i had only left home...duh uh had 2 flag a cab...heng dere were quite a bit o cabs tt day...
reached her sch. @ 0945...so stressed in e cab lah...O~ne said dey were taking photos le n she was left dere wondering where i was...
as i made my way in a sashay 2 e canteen 2 get registered n 2 collect e letter she wrote 2 mommy heard 1 o e teachers go like "huh dis mother so is so young...shld b a sister..." originally i didn't wanna read it de...but stil read le...den v gan dong...(wun b divulging ath here...heh heh...muz protect O~ne's privacy...)
since i was late...n dere were no more proper seats...i was relegated 2 seating upstairs...sat quite centre on dis real rickety bench which i shared wif 2 other ladies who were clearly mothers o their daughters seated below...e usual toks made by e P., e VIP (whoever dey were i juz didn't care) i scanned e girls below 2 locate O~ne's position...*faints* so many ponytails lah...since i knew she's fr 4N so i went n count e position...spotted jacqueline(1 o O~ne's bez frenz fr F4...) scanned a bit more den i saw her le...
finally was e collecting-certs-fr-form-teacher part...haiz...O~ne's was e 2nd last class (in case u didn't know e class names spell 'CHAMPIONZ' when put 2gether...)so i waited 4eva lah...whilst waiting i studied my nails n studied e girls fr e earlier classes...
here's e mean bitch part: i went like...'dis 1 skirt cmi...tt 1 calves so thick...wad's wif e hair...' related stuff in my head...yeah t's wad i do when i ppl-watch....its either a pass or a v mean comment...
O~ne's turn le~! FINALLLY!!!was swellling wif pride as she went onstage 2 collect her cert...sure she didn't win any top academic accolades but @ least i can say my sis noes how 2 wear her uni properly n by properly i mean modifying such tt it looks cool on u...
now tt my own mental bitch-fest was over..."parents r now invited 4 a reception in e canteen..." i cld go find O~ne le...
her face was glistening wif e tears she cried...yea i noe how it feels...e atmosphere in e hall...i mean ur leavin dis familiar environ u've been in 4 four yrs which mabbe 1 o e bez 4 yrs in ur life where u forged worthy frenships...
went 2 look @ O~e's report card...mama desu...didn't expect much fr her considerin tt i didn't do well in my own prelims myself...
ate a bit @ e reception...e mini pizza was gd...juz a tad 2 spicy 4 me but i din't really had 2 quench it down wif water or ath so it was alrite...
followed e F4 2 e classrm blk...wanted 2 go c O~ne's classrm de but its locked n technically its no longer theirs anymore so all decos had already been removed...lost dem 1/2-way up e winding stairs...thinkin tt since dey were upper sec. ppl le so their classrms shld b in e upper flrs rite...?wrong cos 4 e grad cremony all dey needed was a random classroom 2 put their things...felt kinda stupid as i climbed down e stairs...gee...
2day was also vj's openhse so tt's where e F4 were headed 2...i was in-charged o bringin home O~ne's things including dis rose tt xueling gav her...
quite sian on e bus home...haha...but @ least i didn't disappoint...(u shld hear e comments made by O~ne's frenz bout me...but so as not 2 sound too self-absorbed i'm not posting dem...haha.)

14 October, Friday

me fish n meow decided 2 undertake e task o decorating e 'class poster' since previously all art projs by 'our class' were completed by lihui alone...since i promised 2 do e '28/04' sign...e 1 i made looked kinda small on e big vanguard sheet so i made e fonts juz a lil' larger...essentially my idea was 2 make it all colourful n glittery...but e finished prod had all e stars threatenin2 fall out despite bein so called superglue...in e end i decided tt double-sided tape worked beta on it so i scrapped e whole glue idea...(it was ez-ier on my fingers too...not more bits n pieces o glue stuck here n dere n no need 2 pull dem off my fingers removing my skin in e process...)
had a hard time tryin 2 coax e class 2 write their heartfelt msgs on e poster...every1 wanted every1 else 2 write 1st...n e deadline was tt day..!even wif a couple o msgs e poster looked kinda empty....so i dedicated a gr8 deal o space 2 my own msg which took up abt 1/4 o e avail. space dere...
a lot o last min. work was done...had 2 fill up e remaining space so me meow qian qian + brudda baoz juz wrote words n phrases tt we associated wif our class...meow drew a basketball n netball 2 rep e ball games we played as a class...qian qian traced out hello kitty fr behind my organiser n coloured it...
think we submitted e poster @ 1600 liddat...when it was due @ 1400...well @ least we got it done...but i've no idea wad 4 seriously...

9 October, Sunday
went 2 watch NUSDance Ensemble's The Next Wave 2005 @ Unversity Cultural Centre...i noe A's comin le...still got e cheek 2 go watch wad dance performance...but dis ensemble is really gd...wun miz it 4 e world...as me, amir n melissa Q-ed 2 collect our tix...amir whispered 2 me tt e guy in front o us was e same guy who got eliminated 'badly' in 'Eye For A guy 2'...since dis guy was juz in front o me i studied his profile fr behind...den i put 2 n 2 2gether n realised tt e v cute Shan Wee was standing rite in front o me...like wth!!! haha...quickly msged meow 2 spread e gd news...lolz...seriously he's damn tall... i think he got over 1.8m liaoz lo...we saw min too...she looks as pretty as ever...'min is v pretty rite...? amir's words not mine...lolz...by far i think e crowd favs were zaki's n zaini's pieces...zaini's was a visual spectacle...n i actually understood his chereography n e need 4 e clothes as 'props'...it helped tt e song dey danced 2 had lyrics...haha...but it was v v interesting...but i'd say my personal fav was definitely zaki's piece..4 1, it was 1 o e more light-hearted pieces tt nite...e rest were either too abstract 2b understood or had dis real broody kinda feel 2 it...zaki's chereography involved a lot o flighty moves in my opinion...e v nice turns, swirls n e jumps...!i swear i saw ms wee performing in dis piece lo...all e moves were executed perfectly...i was so amazed by e whole thing...n e music was way cool man...e whole thing had dis v magical story feel 2 it...i dun mind watching dis dance again...

4 October, Tuesday
I"M BAQ!!! did u guyz miz-ed me in sch...thou its been only slightly over a wk after prelims ended but e sch suddenly feels so diff...i guess every1 is all geared up 4 e last push till e A's r here...n i juz barely started...-worried-

3 October, Monday
wanted 2 go baq sch de...but my body was feelin quite weak still den i woke up 2 dis splitting headache...so momma made me stay home...mized dancing...but my legs cldn't really bear my weight so well yet thou i'm +ve i've gone down...pirouttes wil hav 2 wait i guess...

2 October, Sunday
i'm discharged le...can u believe it???SO HAPPY!!! whee~!went home 2 slp sum more...suddenly dun like 2 slp on bro's bed le...i think its too low compared 2 e hospital beds...lolz...mom said Uncle Vincent came 2 visit while i was slpin...thanx~!

1 October, Saturday
my relatives came~! Uncle Wilson, Aunt Jo, Sean n Sabrina...sabs even made me dis get-well-soon card...v sweet o her...Aunt Shirley, Aunt Nelly, Aunt Aileen, Aunt Lilian n Aunt Lily oso came...piled me wif fruits n mags lest i became bored...well @ least not yet...cos fish lent me The Da Vinci Code...i'd say its a cool story lah...v intriguing...makes me wanna find out more bout e Catholic Church...i wanna b discharged soon...not tt e staff r bad...i juz dun like 2 stay in hospitals...doesn't help tt dere r cranky old ladies across e rm who refuse 2 take her medicine...i wonder wld i b as cranky when i'm old...

30 September, Friday
lihui, audrey n peiching came~! v sweet o dem wor...sum more bought centrum 4 me leh...where do u find such gd frens..?tokked 4 a bit...actually i'm worried bout e class progress in sch n whether i can catchup or not...dey now everyday do papers...hear already oso scared...dey ask me how r e nurses here...actually not bad lah even 4 those on training...juz tt i realised got a lot o malays...fr their uniforms can tell dey're fr which schs...got fr nyp, ngee ann poly n ite oso hav...didn't even noe ite had courses 4 nursing...but dey're v nice ppl... e dancers came 2day!!! sum more hot dis v nice bouquet o roses...v pretty...so far received le 3 bouquets le...haha...like v 光荣 liddat cos i'm e only 1 wif flowers in e whole ward..! haha...v 不要脸 rite...?v v happy 2 c dem lo...after e syf dance performance like nvr properly gathered 2gether le...den i sum more mized last wk's celebrations...HAPPY BIRTHDAY AITING!!!祝你越变越漂亮!!!
still didn't eat ath 2day...eat 1 mouthful den feel like vomiting all over e place le...sianz.

29 September, Thursday
11 o my classmates came...got michelle, k1, k2 n terence, brudda baoz yong yong da ge n qian qian, yao cong meow n fish plus my ex hwee hwee...haha...he even gave me e flowers e class bought lo...touched until can...but i seriously looked like crap...even a haircut on thursday cldn't save my hair fr lookin like a bird's nest tt day...i think i was visably tired cos i didn't really slp well on my 1st nite @ cgh...while my frens were all dere....i think i nearly fell a slp...haha...so peiseh rite..? ppl come after sch 2 探病 den all i wanted 2 do was slp...lolz...den got tt mean head nurse go n chase dem away...wah, wanted 2 smack her face lah...say wad too many ppl or sum crap shit liddat...by tt day...most o e prelim papers got baq le...results-wise i oso didn't care too much....but dey were def. far fr stellar...actually more like @ e other end o e spectrum...meow oso got giv me my cca records...but i c oso blur-blur 1...call elizabeth oso no use...so oso 随便 lo...later ming xiu came wif meow...haha...so weird weird 1...ytd he came got tok lah...ask him how's he n eth den 2day come le oso dunno wad 2 say...like we said eth finish ytd le...lolz...aiyo, e atmosphere weird weird de lah...den e freakin irritatin head nurse come n kao peh again...say wad visiting hrs over den can only stay 4 5 mins...slap her face lah...hmph.
didn't eat a single thing tt day...only drank milo...den kena all e nauseutic symptoms again...prepared 2 barf bags in case i wanted 2 puke...haiz...suddenly all food sucked big time...

28 September, Wednesday
haha...turns out it was no common flu but indeed dengue...was admitted 2 Changi General Hospital 1st thing in e morn...momma had 2 take 1/2 day leave juz 4 me lo...so peiseh...esp. when her boss so niao 1...lisa meow fish n ming xiu came 2 visit...so gan dong lo...but i still had 2 wait 2 get my ward lo...cos e hospital was full...lolz...in e end it was a certain ward 48, bed 11...e docs came 2 do their rounds n took blood n platelet count...conclusion was if my platelet count returned 2 normal levels i cld b discharged...tt day mine stood @ a mere 70+...
1 thing i hav 2 complain is tt e doc who 1st took my blood was super inexperience!!! wth...juz draw blood only rite...?! den poke poke here, poke poke dere still can't find my vein...say my vein too small...so bo bian take from e hand...blardy shit damn freakin pain lah...den dunno y take so long 2 draw...i ended up wif a huge bruise on my hand lo...damn tia lah can...another doc, dis time female, came in e middle o e nite draw...wah shuang, 1 shot can find my vein already den v fast settle...i praised har lah...oso got kao peh 2 her e earlier doc no skill...hah.

24 September, Saturday
woke up feelin terribly delirious again...except dis time was far worse den last wk's case...e stupid head was throbbin like mad...sumhow managed 2 find my way 2 my mom's rm across e corridor...O~ne was watchin her teen idol drama...tried 2 watch wif her but i was feelin too cold 4 words...crept baq 2 mt rm 2 retrieve my thick blanket...den chose 2 settle @ e centre o e corridor...even wif e blanket my world was still a terribly cold place...took my body temp...it was @ an all time high o 39.9 degrees Celsius!!!thank goodness 4 it being a saturday...dis means tt momma wld b home soon...cldn't get any food down...juz felt nauseus...tried 2 bring e temp down...was still shivering like mad but e body temp reflected otherwise...it was juz terible...took a nap but had weird dreams...things like how i was suppose 2b inventing sth...but sumhow it juz wldn't work...it was so real 4 e dream took place in my rm...upon waking up i headed 4 e bathrm...it was evening den...but when i turned on e usually white light...e colour tt bathed e toilet was yellow! like wth...i juz cldn't c properly anymore...urgh...went downstairs 2 eat my dinner...i think momma bought fish porridge...but e mere smell o it was such a huge turnoff...i juz felt like pukin all over e place...no choice since i wasn't feelin any beta...momma sent me 2 e hospital...took nearly 4eva 2 flag a cab...but thank goodness 4 dis malay couple outside e taxi stand o lion city hotel...dey let us in e taxi 1st...
it didn't help e hospital was cold, cold, cold...--shiver, shiver, shiver...-- since i was running a fever i had 2 put on a mask...i found e situation slightly amusing cos i didn't get 2 put on a mask during e SARS outbreak...but here i m wearin 1 during e dengue fever outbreak...
finally finally it was my turn...e doc said tt it maybe e common flu so i shld juz stay home n rest...
haiz...supposed 2 go out n celebrate aiting's birthday in advance...but den i kena liddat...damn sux lo...y muz after exams fall sick leh..?

22 September, Thursday
Biology Paper 1 (1 1/4h)

LAST DAY O PRELIMS!!!
i noe its nothing but 2 me its another hurdle crossed b4 e A's really set in...still its a happy event...wahaha...
arranged 2 go out wif meow n fish...we all went 2 my hse 2 change....me wearin O~ne's prom skirt as she wanted me 2 help her scout 4 shoes 2 go wif her prom skirt...as usual...as wif after every major exam i went 2 cut my hair...dis time 2gether wif meow, fish n O~ne...eleven helped me style until v funky...haha...v happy tt day...we went 2 far east 2 eat @ dis halal restaurant meow intro-ed...den walked ard 4 a bit...btw O~ne...ur skirt sure attracted a LOT o stares...haha...but sad 2 say i was e 1 baskin in all e attn...lolz...e food wasn't too bad...we cld all go dere again...wanted 2 take neoprint...but realised we ALL dun hav enuff money...v pathetic rite..?turns out tt i still had $10 balance in my UOB acc...so can go take le...
anyways...it was a happy day...but i think i was kinda selfish...(2 find out y...pls ask me personally...)
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21 September, Wednesday
Chemistry Paper 1 (1h)

20 September, Tuesday
Math Paper 2 (3h)

19 September, Monday
Biology Paper 3 (1 1 /2h)

16 September, Friday
Chemistry Paper 2 (1 1/2h)

i rmb-ed i fell ill tt day...was feelin delirious rite fr e start o e paper...suspected case o dengue..or mabbe food poisoning...e bez part was...it was a darn ez paper...but i was feelin so sick i juz cldn't recall e chem facts...esp. organic chem which i had put so much effort recently...e ez paper was wasted on me...but dere wasn't much i cld do...went home n rested well...

15 September, Thursday
Biology Paper 2 (2h)

13 September, Tuesday
General Paper 1 (1 1/2h)
General Paper 2 (1 1/2h)
Chemistry Paper 3 (2 3/4h)

12 September, Monday
e beginning o prelims...
Math Paper 1 (3h)...

~2 all e nice guyz in e world...

2005-07-16T17:03:00.000+08:00

{ripped dis off fish's blog...}

2 all e nice guyz in e world....dis is 4 u...

a special tribute 2 amir...my bestest guy fren...

This is a tribute to the nice guys. The nice guys that finish last, that never become more than friends, that endure hours of whining and bitching about what assholes guys are, while disproving the very point. This is dedicated to those guys who always provide a shoulder to lean on but restrain themselves to tentative hugs, those guys who hold open doors and give reassuring pats on the back and sit patiently outside the changing room at department stores. This is in honor of the guys that obligingly reiterate how cute/beautiful/smart/funny/sexy their female friends are at the appropriate moment, because they know most girls need that litany of support. This is in honor of the guys with open minds, with laid-back attitudes, with honest concern. This is in honor of the guys who respect a girl's every facet, from her privacy to her theology to her clothing style.

This is for the guys who escort their drunk, bewildered female friends back from parties and never take advantage once they're at her door, for the guys who accompany girls to bars as buffers against the rest of the creepy male population, for the guys who know a girl is fishing for compliments but give them out anyway, for the guys who always play by the rules in a game where the rules favor cheaters, for the guys who are accredited as boyfriend material but somehow don't end up being boyfriends, for all the nice guys who are overlooked, underestimated, and unappreciated, for all the nice guys who are manipulated, misled, and unjustly abandoned, this is for you.

This is for that time she left 40 urgent messages on your cell phone, and when you called her back, she spent three hours painstakingly dissecting two sentences her boyfriend said to her over dinner. And even though you thought her boyfriend was a chump and a jerk, you assured her that it was all ok and she shouldn't worry about it. This is for that time she interrupted the best killing spree you'd ever orchestrated in GTA3 to rant about a rumor that romantically linked her and the guy she thinks is the most repulsive person in the world. And even though you thought it was immature and you had nothing against the guy, you paused the game for two hours and helped her concoct a counter-rumor to spread around the floor. This is also for that time she didn't have a date, so after numerous vows that there was nothing 'serious' between the two of you, she dragged you to a party where you knew nobody, the beer was awful, and she flirted shamelessly with you, justifying each fit of reckless teasing by announcing to everyone: 'oh, but we're just friends!' And even though you were invited purely as a symbolic warm body for her ego, you went anyways. Because you're nice like that.

The nice guys don't often get credit where credit is due. And perhaps more disturbing, the nice guys don't seem to get laid as often as they should. And I wish I could logically explain this trend, but I can't. From what I have observed on campus and what I have learned from talking to friends at other schools and in the workplace, the only conclusion I can form is that many girls are just illogical, manipulative bitches. Many of them claim they just want to date a nice guy, but when presented with such a specimen, they say irrational, confusing things such as 'oh, he's too nice to date' or 'he would be a good boyfriend but he's not for me' or 'he already puts up with so much from me, I couldn't possibly ask him out!' or the most frustrating of all: 'no, it would ruin our friendship.' Yet, they continue to lament the lack of datable men in the world, and they expect their too-nice-to-date male friends to sympathize and apologize for the men that are jerks. Sorry, guys, girls like that are beyond my ability to fathom. I can't figure out why the connection breaks down between what they say (I want a nice guy!) and what they do (I'm going to sleep with this complete ass now!). But one thing I can do, is say that the nice-guy-finishes-last phenomenon doesn't last forever. There are definitely many girls who grow out of that train of thought and realize they should be dating the nice guys, not taking them for granted. The tricky part is finding those girls, and even trickier, finding the ones that are single.

So, until those girls are found, I propose a toast to all the nice guys. You know who you are, and I know you're sick of hearing yourself described as ubiquitously nice. But the truth of the matter is, the world needs your patience in the department store, your holding open of doors, your party escorting services, your propensity to be a sucker for a pretty smile. For all the crazy, inane, absurd things you tolerate, for all the situations where you are the faceless, nameless hero, my accolades, my acknowledgment, and my gratitude go out to you. You do have credibility in this society, and your well deserved vindication is coming.

Repost this if you're a nice guy.
Girls repost if you're looking for this/or appreciate these guys...

cheers 2 dem...

take care amir...

~dis sucks...

2005-07-14T19:09:00.000+08:00

jcts results out...

no big surprise tt i tanked eth...like ETH...juz sucks bigtime...screwed up royally...

4 e record...
Biology: 27.5/100
Chemistry: 11/100
Math: 40/100

e only saving grace is prob GP which i got 58 4....but its still totally besides e pt cos' its juz A/O n i failed every single A lvl subj...wtf...

makes u wunder wth i've been up 2 all dis while in jc...n u noe wad...i've no idea...

oh...n i'm down 2 c e P. again...not really shocking...n 2 tell ya e truth...i'm not so worried bout it anymore...juz tt i haven tell my mom bout e results yet...n i dun intend 2...

prelims r ard e corner...56 days more i think...i shld go hang myself if i go online shopping anymore...*slaps face*

btw....did i mention tt i HATE breezzers...? ppl who juz breeze in n outta ur life like its e rite n normal thing 2 do...@ least...going by my definition...

i wan e stability in my life baq....like NOW.

{dis will b my last entry until e A's r over...}

good luck ppl doing ur a's...

-hugs- 4 wacky, amal, ven, lisa n amir...miz charmee darling n hope u'll continue 2 do well in sch -- i rmb our pact...

ruby jie jie...didn't manage 2 cya when u were in town last...take care kiez...

Ciao ppl~!...love ya'all...

~happenstance...

2005-07-03T15:11:00.000+08:00

if u've noticed...e title o dis entry is fr Rachel Yamagata's latest album song...btw 4 those not in e noe...dis song absolutely rox...not bcos its found on e 'One Tree Hill' music compilation...but bcos it juz rox...period.

e pt is...重点是...{if u've met me recently u'd realise tt i've been sayin dis line A LOT...its all small s's fault...woho...} wad i've been up 2 dis june hols...besodes said-muggin 4 jcts...

i think i've bcum a bit o a domestic goddess over dis hols...realised tt i've take a likin 2 ironing n hsekeeping stuff...its nice 2 c e clothes all ironed neatly wif no creases n folds ya noe...haha...wad m i sayin...all dis cumin fr me...e other tt wld prob make me full-fledged 1 wld be workin e kitchen n e sewing machine...i think i need classes 4 those thou...(c: wishlist...)

my bro finally got its papers fr ntu confirmin his place in e U...blearghz...n all those orientation camps...plus his hostel stuff...argh...i wanna go 2 U now lo...seems awfully FUN!!!

damn e dratted A's...

~the o.c. & one tree hill...

2005-07-01T23:44:00.000+08:00

i'm gettin an overdose o american teen soap operas...but i'm lovin every single sec o it...gosh...i think its way beta den a buffet spread o Godiva chocs...argh...hmph, fish may say dey're real twisted n dysfunctional...but den again...i'm a sadist...so twisted n dysfunctional suits me 2 a 'T'...

speakin o american teen soap operas...e 1z in Q r none other den The O.C. & One Tree Hill...

c'mon...wad's dere not 2 like...u've got a gr8 lookin cast...a warped storyline 4 ppl living in warped worlds...dis stuff really works 4 me...n i hope dey keep cumin...i wanna drown in dis world man...wacked i m rite...

i chose 2 tok bout dese life-changing soaps now not bcos i discovered dem late...but bcos o e affecting episodes tt i watched ytd nite...

2300 - 0000: The O.C. on Channel 5
so rebecca juz kinda popped baq in2 sandy's life...dis kinda affected his relationship wif kirsten...but he really tried 2 make it up 2 her...wow...e roses part when e kitchen was filled wif red roses 4 Valentine's Day...i wld love tt man...mabbe sandy had a guilty conscience or sth...but e gesture was sweet all e same...

ryan too did his bez 4 lindsey...he did giv a shot @ apologising 2 caleb bout bein e cause o his heart attack all in a bid 2 win a dinner date wif lindsey...n thou his 1st attempt fell thru...he came baq 4 another shot...n it was juz 4 a V day dinner...seriously, i think caleb is bein a v big jerk bout ryan...he shld juz layoff n go recuperate properly or sth...but ryan was damn sweet...goin thru all tt 4 a date...n den bailing so lindsey cld continue havin her bonding session wif caleb...lindsey muz hav meant a lot 2 him...

poor seth...its so obvious tt's he's so not over summer...e blubbering fool act in fronta her...god, my heart really went out 2 him...he really really liked her...well, its kinda his own fault now tt she's now wif zach...he juz left w/o a word n was so hard 2 coax baq 2 newport beach...but theirs is like a sweet but tragic love triangle...n i swear tt summer still likes him...deep down...she's juz gotta find it in her again...den e san diego hotel scene...when summer asked him if he wanted 2 say sth 2 her @ e comic book pitch meeting...he juz left it @ tt...-sigh-

marissa has a real messed up life alrite...i pity her...thou she seems 2 hav it all...she's actually still tryin 2 seek solace in sum1...juz any1 2b her rock...2 steady her...now she's wif alex...its a weird combi i think....i've nuthin against lesbian relationships...hey we're all humans wif emotions wad...but i've say alex is real hot...so i was kinda shocked 2 noe 'e ex was a her' part...she's got dis wild sensual vibe bout her...i love tt purple streak in her hair...she's cool cos she lives her life by her own rules n i really respect tt... wldn't hav e guts 2 do tt i think...2 juz pack up n leave home like tt...

n i can't believe adults can b so manipulative...wad julie did was way underhand man...its disgusting...but cumin fr her...i wldn't hav expected ath less...n 2 think she got her marissa 2 aid her in her scheming conquest...urgh...leaves a vile distaste in my mouth...i can't possibly live wif a mom like tt...i'd leave home soon enuf when i'm o age...a person's gotta hav sum values n principles n i think julie is scary 2 hav ard as a wife...poor caleb...but 4 a jerk like him...nah...i take tt baq...

i think ryan n seth hav e coolest parents ard...thou they've all got their dysfunctional times...but it helps when u talk it out instead o using deception 2 cover ur tracks...

0000 - 0100: One Tree Hill on Channel 5
lucas did e htm test thingey...its nice 2 noe he had sum1 2 look up 2 when he was growing up...keith wld make a gr8 dad i think...he explained e significance o lucas takin e test 2 karen...but sadly he tested +ve 4 it...howeva he showed keith's -ve test results 2 karen so she wldn't worry...its a v sweet gesture on his part...i guess he knew his mom too well tt he didn't want her 2 worry bout him...but den again all moms wld worry...its a maternal instinct thing...

nathan cumin clean wif haley bout his short past wif taylor really made me c him in a new lite...but i was disappointed wif haley's indecisiveness...esp. her lies...issit really tt hard 2b truthful 2 man who's gonna b a part o u 4 e rest o ur life...? i can't say much on dis..ack i haven even been in love b4...it was sad tt nathan gave her an ultimatum 'leave n we're thru' but she left all e same n e devastation written all over nathan's face tt he's got more thn he bargained 4...wrecking their marital home n all...i really hope haley will cum baq 2 him soon...if not i fear its really over 4 dem...

all e big sis advice taylor's been doling out 2 haley...2 do e rite thing...e reminders tt she had a lot going 4 her while taylor herself was always crashing ard...it seems tt her life is so unpredictable...one has 2 stand by one's choices thou i guess...she did seem such a pain in e neck @ 1st...but e big sister act was sweet o her...i really didn't expect taylor 2 hav tt side in her...mabbe she was too screwed 1/2 e time...

e intensity o tt shared mmt lucas had wif brooke...i swear if felix didn't walk in den...dey'd hav started makin out dere n den...its so 'duh' obvious tt lucas is so not over brooke...-haiz- all tt unrequited loveshit...n he still believes in her so much...argh...its so sweet its enuf 2 giv me a blardy toothache...

another disgusting adult manipulation...lucas knew wad he was in 4...'i guess u nvr changed...' he's damn rite dan didn't change...geez...y wld tt man{he's not even qualified 2b a 'man', jerk wld b more apt...} wan him baq in his life after, wad 17 yrs o abandonment...n lucas summore was blaqmailed in2 it...4 keepin jules-keith secret...damn. hate dan.

@ tric...The Wreckers{michelle branch & jessica harp} played The Good Kind...its really good man...n i loved chris's (tyler hilton) opening no.

e closing scene...hell it was so touching i cried...it had brooke preparing 4 her campaign speech n she spoke all those words fr her gut...it had scenes fr karen running 2 andy bout lucas movin in 2 dan's place...it juz showed e significance o when ppl turn 2 u when they're down...u muz mean a hell lot 2 dem...its dis v strong bond...which is built on trust tt makes it so delicate yet wonderful 2 hav...e elation on andy's face tt karen chose 2 turn 2 him when she needed sum1... i guess its a warm feeling 2 hav tt u r needed by ppl...tt ppl trust u enuf confide in ya...

2 ghoti: c wad i mean...dese soaps aren't tt sadistic k...so go catch it if u can~!

n e music is really good...i wanna buy all e soundtracks fr The O.C. & One Tree Hill...anybody wanna sponsor...?

already noe wad i want 4 christmas dis yr too...Seasons 1 & 2 o The O.C. & One Tree Hill...figures rite...lolx.

~post jcts 2005...

2005-07-01T10:27:00.000+08:00

rite...so i shld've blogged ytd...since jcts r finally over...gosh...juz sayin those 3 letters gives me e creeps...yah it WAS tt bad...a quick rehash all e same...

gp was okay...but i'll say it had 2b 1 o e harder gp papers i had ever sat 4 in tj...
bio was bad...simply bcos i didn't study HARD enuf by MY standards...n didn't hv e balls 2 go spot topics 4 e essay...so eth came out like crap...like sum blubbering idiot...geez, i wish i learnt e art fr amir earlier...damn.
chem had 2b by far E CRAPPISET....i didn't even managed 2 get past section b...mabbe i knew tt i was a lost cause fr e start...i had already lost e battle b4 even takin e exam...
math was e bez o all my papers...it wasn't difficult...@ least not exceptionally difficult...but i totally wanted 2 slap myself 4 4gettin crucial formulas...freak man...

i'm so gonna c e P. again...

but most imptly...i've let my tutors down again...-sighz-they've tried their bez 4 me...but i didn't 4 dem...argh...i hate dis feeling...

i need 2 get my life baq...n fast...@ e rate i'm going...i mite as well juz go quit sch...my mom needs a hand in e hse anyway...

sheesh...wad m i tokkin bout'... ...

but 1st...i need 2 re-charge myself...

~n dis...

2005-06-12T19:16:00.000+08:00

Half Life -- Duncan Sheik

Afternoon
I fell asleep in the living room
It's one of those moments
When everything is so clear

Before the truth goes back into hiding
I want to decide 'cause it's worth deciding
To work on finding something more than this fear

It takes so much out of me to pretend
Tell me now, tell me how, to make amends

Maybe, I need to see the daylight
To leave behind this half-life
Don't you see I'm breaking down

Oh lately, something here don't feel right
This is just a half-life
Is there really no escape?
No escape from time
Of any kind

I keep trying to understand
This thing and that thing, my fellow man
I guess I'll let you know when i figure it out

But I don't mind a few mysteries
they can stay that way it's fine by me
And you are another mystery i am missing

It takes so much out of me to pretend

Maybe, I need to see the daylight
To leave behind this half-life
Don't you see I'm breaking down

Oh lately, something here don't feel right
This is just a half-life
Is there really no escape?
No escape from time of any kind

Come on lets fall in love
Come on lets fall in love
Come on lets fall in love
Again...

'Cause lately something here don't feel right
This is just a half-life,
Without you I am breaking down
Oh wake me, I wanna see the daylight
Save me from this half-life
Let's you and I escape
Escape from time

Come on lets fall in love
Come on lets fall in love
Come on lets fall in love
Again...

~*~hell hath no fury like a woman's scorn~*~

~n dis...

2005-06-12T19:04:00.000+08:00

dis is 1 really beautiful song...i absolutely love e lyrics...another 1 song which i find v meaningful...taken off e 'What A Girl Wants' soundtrack...

Ride Of Your Life -- John Gregory

Wishing on a shooting star
But dreams alone will get you far
Can't deny your feelings anymore
The world is waiting right outside your door
What are you waiting for

Come on here's your chance
Don't let it slip right through your hands
Are you ready for the ride of your life

Dreams are alright and go nowhere
Just reach out and pull them in and
Get ready for the ride of your life
The ride of your life

In your heart you know what you must do
You only got yourself to answer to
Don't let fear of fallin' hold you down
Your spirit's flying higher above the clouds
You go up there

Come on here's your chance
Don't let it slip right through your hands
Are you ready for the ride of your life
Dreams are alright and go nowhere
Just reach out and pull them in and
Get ready for the ride of your life

You are on your way no looking back
There's no future living in the past
You're free at last yeah

You're free at last...

Come on here's your chance
Don't let it slip right through your hands
Are you ready for the ride of your life...yea
Dreams are alright and go nowhere
Just reach out and pull them in and
Get ready for the ride of your life

The ride of your life

Come on, come on get ready

Yea, yea, yea

Dreams are alright and go no where
Just reach out and pull them in
Get ready for the ride of your life

~*~hell hath no fury like a woman's scorn~*~

~n dis...

2005-06-12T19:02:00.000+08:00

Long Time Coming -- Oliver James

Everybody wants to be loved
Every once in a while
We all need someone to hold onto
Just like a helpless child, yeah
Can you whisper in my ear
Let me know it's alright

It's been a long time coming
Down this road
And now I know
What I've been waitin' for
And like a lonely highway
I'm tryin' to get home
Ooo, love's been a long time comin'

You can love for a lifetime
You can love for a day
You can think you've got everything
But everything is nothing
When you throw it away, yeah
Then look in my eyes
And I have it all once again

It's been a long time comin'
Down this road
And now I know
What I've been waitin' for
It's like a lonely highway
I'm tryin' to get home
Ooo, love's been a long time comin'

Didn't know I was lost
Til you found me, uh huh
Didn't know I was blind
But now I see

Can you whisper in my ear?
Let me know it's alright

It's been a long time comin'
Down this road
And now I know
What I've been searchin' for
Oooh, been a long long highway
And now I see
Ooo, love's been a long time
Oooh been a long time
Love's been a long time comin'

~*~hell hath no fury like a woman's scorn~*~

~n dis...

2005-06-12T18:59:00.000+08:00

Greatest Story Ever Told -- Oliver James

Thank you for this moment
I've gotta say how beautiful you are
Of all the hopes and dreams I could've prayed for
Here you are

If I could have one dance forever
I would take you by the hand
Tonight it's you and I together
I'm so glad I'm your man

And if I lived a thousand years
You know I never could explain
The way I lost my heart to you that day
But if destiny decided I should look the other way
Then the world would never know
The greatest story ever told
And did I tell you that I love you tonight?

I don't hear the music
When I'm lookin' in your eyes
But I feel the rhythm of your body
Close to mine
It's the way we touch that sends me
It's the way we'll always be
Your kiss, your pretty smile, you know I'd die for
Oh baby, you're all I need

And if I lived a thousand years
You know I never could explain
The way I lost my heart to you that day
But if destiny decided I should look the other way
Then the world would never know
The greatest story ever told
And did I tell you that I love you?
Just how much I really need you?

Did I tell you that I love you tonight? Tonight...

And if I lived a thousand years
You know I never could explain
The way I lost my heart to you that day
But if destiny decided I should look the other way
Then the world would never know
The greatest story ever told
And did I tell you that I love you?
Just how much I really need you?

Did I tell you that I love you tonight?

~*~hell hath no fury like a woman's scorn~*~

~n dis...

2005-06-12T18:47:00.000+08:00

in view o e romantic mood everybody seems 2b in...like wad ven said ytd i met...yesh since e longest time...

"wah, like when i left sch den every1 got attched or sth..." n my dear ur not a junx...u've gotta b e sweetest dear eva n i'm really happie 4 ya happiness in findin ur man...take care...-hugs-

so dis song...

{actually, i watched 'A Cinderella Story' again recently...haha...e 1 which 1 o my hubby Chad Michael Murray starred in...den went 2 dl so many songx fr e soundtrack...too bad tt its got way too many hilary duff songx...}

i'm sure 1 obsessed freak...lolx...

Fallen -- Mya

Oh
Yeah
Huh Oh

You complete me
Like air and water boy
I need thee
And when I'm in your arms I feel free
Fallen
My heads up in the clouds in love
I'm proud
To you say it loud
Like an accident it happend
Out of nowhere
It just happend
And I ain't mad at all
Because I've

Fallen
Head over heels
I've fallen
In love with you
I've fallen
And I can't get up
Don't wanna get up
Because of love (Because of love)

Fallen
Head over heels
I've fallen
In love with you
I've fallen
And I can't get up
Don't wanna get up
Because of love

Baby
To let you get away is crazy (Let you get away)
so I'm doing what it takes
To make you pledge your love to me
You see cause I'm tryin to be your lady
For ever and ever baby
The picture wouldn't be the same
If you weren't standing next to me
Can't you see I'm fallen

Fallen
Head over heels
I've fallen (I'm fallen)
In love with you
I've fallen (Oh)
And I can't get up
Don't wanna get up
Because of love (Because of love)

Fallen
Head over heels
I've fallen
In love with you
I've fallen
And I can't get up (And I can't get up)
Don't wanna get up (Don't wanna get up)
Because of love

You complement me
Not an accesory
You're necessary
You never could speak bad words against me
Your bare with me
Security
Are you here with me
Your my happiness
My joy (Joy)
And all because of you boy
I look forward to the time
I spend with you
Whatever it is we do

Cause I'm fallen for you boy
Yeah, yeah, yeah
Fallen
I've fallen for you
Fallen
Head over heels for you
So in love with you
Fallen
Love, oh
For you

Touch me (Touch me)
Hold me (Hold me)
Love me (Love me)
Kiss me
In love with you
Talk to me (Talk to me)
Caress me (Oh)
Play with me
Don't wanna get up
Explore me
Your my everything

Fallen
Head over heels (To let you get away is crazy)
I've fallen
In love with you
I've fallen
And I can't get up (I won't get up)
Don't wanna get up (Don't wanna get up)
Because of love

Fallen (Touch me)
Head over heels (Hold me)
I've fallen
In love with you
I've fallen (Whoa)
And I can't get up (With you)
Don't wanna get up
Because of love

Fallen (In love)
Head over heels
I've fallen (My joy)
In love with you
I've fallen
And I can't get up (And I can't get up)
Don't wanna get up (Don't wanna get up)
Because of love

Fallen (Head over heels for you)
Head over heels (So in love with you)
I've fallen
In love with you
I've fallen
And I can't get up (And I can't get up)
Don't wanna get up (Don't wanna get up)
Because of love

~*~hell hath no fury like a woman's scorn~*~

~prom dresses...

2005-06-09T23:23:00.000+08:00

i noe...bad cheryl...wad she doin...thinkin bout prom...or grad nite 4 tt matter when her jcts r juz about round e corner...?!

was too caught up in my sis search 4 her ultimate prom outfit...she's lookin ard now...dis is 2 prevent herself fr turning up in e same outfit as sum1 else...n o course...2 take advatge o e gss...

thus i've embarked on a search online...yes...i begin 2 trawl e prom malls in e comfort o my room...sad 2 say...most o dem r found in e US...so if calculatin shippin costs n tax n wad not...i'd think my sis wld b beta off buyin tt peach victorian lookin (@ least by her standards) sleeveless dress which is retailing at 179.90 @ sum shop in heeren...

www.promdresses.com is okay...sum o cuts r qite darin but really neat...
www.bestpromdresses.com doesn't quite live up 2 its name o bein e bez...i think e cuts in e afore-mentioned site look beta...but givs tips on how 2 do ur hair thou...
www.loralie.com definition o prom defers GREATLY fr e singaporean norm...i'm not tryin 2 stereotype or ath...but their dresses r HUGE...more befittin o those in weddings...it oso reminded me o e dresses worn by e character played by Amanda Bynes, Daphne Reynolds, o 'What A Girls Wants' durin her debunte ball...way cool man...
www.davidsprom.com juz givs tips in preparin 4 e big day....no dresses thou...
www.store.tjformal.com shockin ain't it...2 find tt my sch happens 2b afiliated by name...hhmmzz...wunder if dey giv discounts not...e designs here r only so-so @ bez...i think...
www.simplydresses.com quite okay stuff i guess...haha...

lessons o e day:

nvr nvr buy deep necklines if u've got nuthin in front 2 flaunt....let those who got it do their work k...

stay away fr tiers...dey make u look like a fish outta water...no offense ghoti...

buyin online is VERY VERY EXPENSIVE...n unless u've got dotin parents wif huge reserves like bottomless pits or sum v kind sponsors...(and if u do...pls intro k...lolx....)

Conclusion: i wan my dress 2b o a cool colour...probably pale green or blue or lilac...{2 think spendin 2 yrs @ tj wld make me still wanna wear green on my grad nite...}

~did u noe...

2005-06-09T10:59:00.000+08:00

was flippin thru dis wk's issue o URBAN 2day...(4 those not in e noe....its e free mag-like paper tt cums wif The Straits Times every Tthurs...)

so anyway dis wk's issue is on bags bags n more bags...n i wan maore bags....i'm so sick o havin 2 improvise my wardrobe due 2 e lack o bags...

1 day when i get really successful...i wan an entire walk-in wardrobe o clothes, shoes n bags....separately...do u noe tt ayumi hamasaki has way so many shoes...half o which she doesn't even wear...?! she juz likes lookin @ dem...or so...i hear...

n now 2 e title o 2day's entry...

guess wad i found out fr URBAN...?!

*i noe suspense kills ppl...*

Mrs Leong, previously affectionately known as Ms Li-anne Sia 2 e class o 3/4CR 2002/3...until she got married tt is...has 3 mth-old daughter liaoz!!!

{ok, so those who know dis tidbit already shld go hang urselves 4 not lettin ME noe!!!
i noe, mabbe if i had gone baq 2 cchs more often, i wldn't hav missed out on dis fantastic news...
'wang en fu yi de jia huo' <--me}

as quoted fr e URBAN feature:

www.urbannymph.com
Founder: When former teacher Li-anne Sia became pregnant last year, she took the opportunity to turn her interest in bags into a money-making venture. Urban Nymph was launched last April with a friend, Ingrid How.
What: The stay-at-home Mum now looks after her three-month-old daughter while surfing the Internet for casual and colourful bags from Japan, Britain and the United States. ...Targeted at young women and teenagers, the designs are cute and girly.
Prices: From $20 for a cloth cluth to $120 for a wool bag. Delivery is free for orders over $100, or $5 for next day delivery.

Disclaimer: i'm not trying 2 plug her site or ath...n as proof o tt....i shall add every site tt was featured in e same article as Mrs Leong's.

www.rougeonline.com {not bad...t-shirt designs r quite cool...i esp. liked e puppet ballet 1...}
www.luxeideas.com {didn't quite appeal 2 me...haha...}
www.dustbunnyvintage.com {dis didn't appeal 2 me either...v ex @ least 2 me...n v proper n grown-up stuff...}
www.purpleanemone.com {e layout isn't as nice...e stuff r ok only...@ least by my standards...}
www.cocoondreams.com {v few stuff...i was disappointed...boo...}

cool rite...?

didn't noe Mrs. Leong had it in her...hhmmzz...mabbe i'll try my hand @ it...when i actually hav e TIME...sth which seems 2b outta my reach ALL e time...blearghz...

more muggin 2 do...

~lettin go...

2005-05-25T23:04:00.000+08:00

lock e gate...went 2 my room...n saw my mom in tears...again...

-haiz-

dis always happens everytime _ cums baq...hate dis...

"rmb...shld ath happen 2 me...dun eva seek help fr _'s side o e family..."

like i eva wld...pui~!

hate dem...2-faced bastards...my mom had a pt e other day...

chanced upon photos o e adulterous pair @ my 2nd uncle's home...blardy fuckin posin 4 pics...damn dem all...how can dey do tt when my mom ain't legally divorced yet...it was like a party thrown in tt blardy slut's honour...dis only signals 1 thing: dey fuckin accept e blardy fucktard's bitch...slut...slut....SLUT...

shld've farkin given a tight slap across her stupid fuckin powdered face e other time when i had e chance...how i'd kill 2 do tt now...ggGGRR!!!

-haiz-

dis issue has been goin on like 4eva...n my mom still can't let go...-haiz- o course i hav 2b more understandin..._'s most prob her 1st love...been 2gether 4 almost 30 yrs...slept side-by-side 4 22 yrs..._ had been her life...a dependable figure...n now it has cum 2 dis...

"i dun love u anymore..."

e v words _ said tt pierced my mom's heart n plunge her in2 her own painful globe o endless sufferin...

"if i carry on like tt i'll really end up in woodbridge..."

hate dis...HATE _ even more 4 givin my mom even e slightest hope n den snatching it away fr her...all dis juz as she's cumin in2 terms wif livin life again as a single...

damn hate _...

we shld juz totally move soon...i can't stand dis shit anymore...damnit...

~dresscode...

2005-05-23T23:25:00.000+08:00

good news...happy news...fantastic news...brilliant news...awesome news...

hear hear ppl~!

MR. CHIN'S GETTIN MARRIED!!!

isn't tt absolutely joyful...?

we muz get 2gether on dis day 2 celebrate...!!!

oh i love hapy occassions...i think we shld hav more o dem...

speakin o which....i'm gonna recount a minor conversation i had wif him on fri...

"mr. chin...wad's e dress code...?"
"casual..."
"oh, u mean i can wear wad i normally wear when i go orchard...?"
"wad do U normally wear when u go orchard...? mini-skirts...?
"yah..."
"no no no...no mini skirts...dun u hav dresses...?
"no...i dun wear dresses..."
"ok...den mabbe sum pant suit or sth..."
"ok den...i noe wad 2 do..."

haha....trust me 2 spread e dress code ok...i'm quite good @ stuff liddat...as mi good peeps can testify...

i'm gonna wear my butterfly top...now 2 find e rite shoes...{shudders @ e thot o wearin e sliver heels again...relax ppl...i've gotten rid o it as soon as i got home...haha...}

blaq heels here i cum~!

~more split personalities...

2005-05-18T20:40:00.000+08:00

mabbe i DO suffer fr split personality...or mabbe its anger management problems...whicheva...but i've been noticin a pattern in my moods...n dey tend 2b v drastic...major drastic...

figures wad...every1 hav a certain tolerance lvl when bein provoked...i 4 1 choose 2 wear all my exp on my sleeve...think tt's warnin' enuff 2 tell ppl 2 baq off...as if my thunderous blaq face not enuff...still muz kao peh sum more...i argue until cry...damn shit lah...i cry too ezly...everytime a lil' bit ji dong den cry liaoz...hate dis...hate dis...HATE DIS!!!

mabbe its e lack o breatin space...i dunno...call it bullshit if u wan...after my major breakdown in fronta e vp n various tutors...i was more resolved 2 work hard...i paid attn in tuts...i tried my hardest 2 catch-up w my h/w...so, i'm still laggin bhind...but @ least i'm makin a conscious effort 2 DO SUMTHING ABT E FUCKIN Fs RITE?!?!

i'm not tryin 2 redeem myself here...i dun giv a shit bout wad others think...go ahead n judge...i'm stronger den u think...

fuck dem can...i considered v guai dis term liaoz lah...den every fuckin tme say i go out w frens...waste time on net...fuck lah...juz damn blardy friggin pissed...kiam pah issit...wu ping wu ju den cum n kao peh me...

finished my dinner @ top sped...bang bang bang...utensils @ e plate....my bottle in e basin...reach room...hurled eth w-in reach...kicked my bag....kicked sum more...chop chop bathe....bang my fists against e ceramic walls...damn blardy bu shaung loz...

actually all dis anger stemmed fr...let's juz put it @ 'sumwhere'...figures...e way anger works 4 me...its like everytime sth happens...i shut up bout it...bottle up my feelings till i buai tahan...den like major volcanic eruption....i dun giv a damn who u r...u can b god 4 all i care...rmb, i've denounced my faith followin all dis shit...i dun giv a hoot bout retribution...it cums it cums...

so even if my mom cums n kneel on e floor n beg me 2 curb my anger (which she apparently did, if not i wldn't b able 2 write dis...) i didn't budge on e anger front...stomp stomp stomp...bang bang bang...if u dun wanna die den...dun cum near me...unless I initiate it.

~about forgiveness...

2005-05-18T12:59:00.000+08:00

can't believe i missed dance ytd...tt's rite...ME...MISS DANCE...doesn't quite go does it...? but yah tt's wad i did...juz didn't feel up 2 it ytd...but it'll prob b 1 o those times...wun c a repetition...i hope...

tokked 2 mom after i came home fr sch...haha...she was like contemplatin 4 sooooo long whether 2 go 4 dis interview @ dis bone specialist clinic in suntec as a translator n receptionist...i had 2 urge her 2 go...dead-pan voice n eth...she was like..so afraid...cos she kinda lost touch wif e pace o society...been cooped up @ home 4 too long...n SHE GOT E JOB!!! haha...like finally finally...i seriously think tt she needs 2 live 4 herself...dis job mabbe a start 2 greater things...

she told me she still misses _ thou...tears welling up in e process summore...2 tell ya e truth...i'm feelin quite sian-ded by all dis talk...mabbe bcos i've seen reality...i was like...wth lo...dis kinda crap shit oso still can make u pine...pui~!

den dere's dis part bout her 4givin hhim if _ eva makes a change baq in heart...

so, i may hav said tt its beta 2 4get n move on blah blah blah...but ya noe wad...dis time its diff...so wad if _ eva makes tt move...its 1 thing 2 wanna cum baq...my mom mabbe v receptive 2 dis idea...i 4 1 WILL NVR HAV A CHANGE IN HEART...get a life lo..._ can't juz cum baq as n when _ likes...NO WAY...I WILL NVR 4GIV OR 4GET ALL DIS SHIT.Period.

mabbe dere's too much hate in me...thou, it doesn't show often...

oh wtf...y m i writin all dis crap...

~split personality...

2005-05-16T20:49:00.000+08:00

i dun suffer fr it...only e milder form o it...

mood swings...

major major case 2day...juz feel like screamin' till e world gets engulfed in flames or sth...

all was kinda well in e morn...had a riot in clazz e mmt we(as in fish, meow n me) got 2 clazz...surprise, surprise...mr chin didn't turn up 4 sch 2day...which meant tt we had 2 whole periods 2 ourselves...Yeah~!

unfortunately, wilfred, or freddie as he's affectionately known 2 me only, had 2 settle sum clazz admin stuffies...which had 2 take up an entire period...but i had a wild time...went rd e clazz spoutin random jap words...even tried 2 tell say yong my hp no. in jap...u noe wad...i decided tt i'll learn jap 1st b4 dance after e 'A's...haha haha...every1 thot i was mad...myself included...

e conversation went along e lines o..:
(excerpts fr tok wif bruddas)

"anatawa Qiaofeng-san...?"
"watashiwa Xueshenyi-desu..."
"doso yoroshiku..!"

love e bruddas...dey were all play-actin roles fr 天龙八部, now showin every sat @ 9pm channel u...林志颖is actin in it too...(seriously considerin 2 take him in as my 11th hubby...haha...)

action began @ home...dun say liaoz...think bout it already can make my blood boil...

in short...2day i quite bu shuang...

~e unspeakables in my life...

2005-05-16T18:40:00.000+08:00

The Unspeakables -- ch3ry| yamato zala

I'm in tears now
As I write this,
"The Unspeakables"
Tis' called...

My life was overturned,
Nothing was left to its entirety.
Once a solid family foundation,
Removed from underneath me,
Like Aladdin's magic carpet it was,
'Cept this didn't catch its rider's fall...

We turned to you for solace.
You took over this heavy burden
Of bringing us up.
An uphill task I know,
For who knows what is to come tomorrow.
But there was only you left...
Isn't there?

At times I laugh,
Share a secret smile with her,
When we start talkin' in our tongue.
I know the pain of shuutin' you out of our world.

But I've already figured out,
Laid it out in black and white,
That I'll never be able to make you see.

You were a great mom,
You truly were...
But an invisable wall just passes between us
Everytime I tried to make you see,
In my own way,
In my own terms,
But you never did...

Maybe its just me,
Or am I to turn to,
The talk of 'Fate',
To fnd a reason for this.

Cos' she never had a problem
With this,
At least in my own eyes,
She never did...

Every minor tiff,
Every major blowout,
I get really angry,
Especially the ones that concern
Your prior misconceptions
And numerous misunderstandngs

But i never stood up for myself,
I didn't develop the habit,
Maybe I was just too tired to...

Sadness overwhelmes me now...
Crying buckets as I write this.
I wouldn't know how to answer your questions
About my red-rimmed eyes...

Just let it lie,
just let it lie,
For I fear the tears
Might just fall again.

~*~hell hath no fury like a woman's scorn~*~

~my new hairstyle...

2005-05-04T12:57:00.000+08:00

decided tt i wanted 2 cut my hair...juz felt tt i needed 2 do do sth bout e frazzled mess tt is my locks..give dem a new life or sth...

consulted O~ne bout tt ytd...naturally she gave e go ahead...haha...lolx...

had a semi-hard time...cos though i wanted 2 keep e length o my hair...i still needed 2 DO STH bout it...but my hair was already SO LAYERED...dere really wasn't much e hairdresser, Eleven cld do...(funky rite her name...she's oso gotta cool hair style 2 boot kiez...)

in e end she suggested tt i juz cut it shorter...n my fringe o course...n layer my hair even more...

e cuttin part wasn't tt bad...cut den cut lo...can grow again 1 wad...juz dunno how fast my hair will grow dis time...long story...(if u wanna noe badly y...ask me personally hor...)

e stylin part was funniest...

i admit tt i M NO GOOD when it cums 2 usin stylin products...sure, i noe my gel fr my wax n dere's even clay now...but i juz dun get e art o application...

anyway..i decided tt i'l need 2 wake up an extra hr earlier juz 2 blow my hair dry n style it...so wad's e pt...i wanna conc in sch 1 k...i need my beauty slp too...Eleven suggested tt i juz apply hair serum or sth 2 kinda tame it...

those who've seen me...comment pls...freddie aka wilfred okayed it 4 e record...haha...

n amir...u beta giv me ur HONEST opinion hor...i dun like e farnie exp u gav me hor...

~a series o unfortunate events...

2005-05-02T19:58:00.000+08:00

geez...i thot i'll b kinda happy now tt i've gotten a new stash o mp3s...(dl-ded o course...) 2 listen...(namely: variations o 'simple gifts' -- damn...i juz can't find e 1 used in TJ's SYF piece...argh... -- & e 4 tracks fr e Lord of the Dance!!! its damn damn DAMN nice!!! & i only got 4 tracks...e whole album muz totally kick-butt man....I LOVE CELTIC MUSIC!!! btw...didya noe dey've got 'simple gifts' too on LOTD...?! i made dis stunning discovery 2day while humming e tune 2 myself....found tt it MATCHED!!! wohoho...~!)

ok, so i'm totally off-topic...as usual...

rite...bout dis afternoon...mom called outta 2 me 2 ask bout O~ne's bunch o keys n whether i've returned dem 2 her yet...n 4 e record...i haven't...dunno wad came over me...i actually BANGED my head against my bro's doorframe...which theoretically speakin SHLD NOT @ ALL HAPPEN...
cos': 1. his rm mabbe nxt door 2 mine, but its stil a good deal o dist away fr e staircase; e pt @ where i was supposed 2 shout my ans 2 my mom...
2. i've lived in dis hse 4 over 10 yrs....so i shld noe my way rd e hse w my eyes closed...
so beats me how TT happened...but e thing is it ALREADY HAPPENED...& i'm sufferin fr a tender spot @ e side o my head which is threatenin 2 balloon in2 a full-fledged 'obakak'...(which basically means 'bump'...i noe...its an awfully BAD translation but locals shld get e drift....haha...)

n tt's juz case1...

i was as freakin hell as ath...VIOLATED 2DAY!!!
n e bez part is...i blardy hell didn't do a shit bout it...ARGH!!!

i was juz walkin w my mom in fronta me 2 e hawker centre bhind my home...was kinda dazed cos' o all e celtic music...i was sorta like floatin...den i felt an entire arm-length against my baq 4 a sec...turned ard 2 c dis OLD MAN rite bside me...which...(he's only credited a 'which' in my entry...cos he's juz a filthy piece o vermin...hmph!) i had absolutely no idea came out fr...
it was kinda apparent tt it was done ON PURPOSE...but guess wad...GUESS WAD...i did NIL ABOUT IT!!!

i juz glared @ e D.O.M (4 those not in e noe...its short 4 dirty old man)..., muttered 'bastard' underneath my breath...n continued walkin...

i was as sure as hell i had juz been molested...but i didn't do ath bout it...damn siah...i feel PATHETIC...argh!!!

now i'm goin like wth wth wth n more wth...can't believe tt dis happened @ a hawker centre in semi-broad daylite!!!(semi- cos' it was in e evening le...)

ass lott guy...may he get all e world's incurable STDs, suffer e most immeasurable form o toture, die fr AIDS n burn in Hell...

juz plain grossed out...n pissed @ myself...

~lord of the dance...

2005-05-02T00:07:00.000+08:00

woho...i finally got my outfit 2gether...yep e 1 i've been planning 4 months...e whole look is set!!!

it was a real special occasion 2 wear it...cos i was gonna watch 1 o e world's biggest tap dance extravaganza...The lord of the Dance!!!

spag top...593 levi's...bronze-gold weave belt...i was good 2 go...told my mom i was going 2 sum dance performanc...juz kinda left out e tic price...{it cost a swell $72.50}...was running late...as usual...no surprise here...

so havin walked a far bit fr my home...i decided 2 cab dere...

turns out i didn't hav 2...cos it didn't start on time...anyway...wasted bout 5 bucks 4 nuthin...but heck i wldn't wanna miss a sec o it...

reached e entrance...n bought e programme booklet 4 10 bucks...{in all i blew bout 80 bucks already...} but i did my h/w...n i considered it a collectable so no biggie bout e price...

entering e theatre i was a bit...surprised i reckon...cos 1. i was really @ a dist fr e stage...2. e sets on stage were small...i wun say puny...but it was small compared 2 Riverdance...

i'm really sorry but e comparisons were inevitable i guess...i'm no critic...{thou my frens say i m...}but since both were tap dances revolving ard e Irish folklore...

i watched e Riverdance when it premiered in Singapore when i was 13 or 14...i was blown away by their perfect unison in body n soul...n e Celtic music was so arousing...i was very very impressed...mabbe bcos it was my 1st dance performance...it was mind-numbing...i wanted 2b a dancer dere n den...n started practising my tap dance moves @ home wif my sis...haha...n its music still haunts me 2day...

LOTD was good...really...but i preferred Riverdance...mabbe it was bcos o e magnitude n sheer scale o e stage n e larger-than-life performances by e dancers...dere were definitely more dancers 4 Riverdance...n dey had a stronger storyline...i think tt counts 4 a lot 2 me...

now 4 e highlites:
e singer!!! GOD I LOVED HER VOICE!!! it was absolutely magical...i was drowned in e intensity o her voice...thou she sang in Irish(ithink) but i was swept away all e same...it was sweet, pristine -- she was pitch-perfect...I LOVE HER VOICE!!!

e temptress~! i think she's a much beta dancer than e other female lead, e 1 who played e goddess...she did her moves so well...recovering fr a split 2 contort herself 2 execute a high kick...i wanna be her...
trivia: btw...thou she plays e temptress...actually in real life she's married 2 e male lead...e guy who plays lord of the dance...cool huh...i read fr a pape tt dey always settle any dispute have b4 going on stage...

i enjoyed e performance...but i've bcum too much o critic lately....mabbe bcos i've kinda been thru e basic motions o a dancer...no i dun claim 2b a pro @ it...mabbe i'm juz biased lah...but tap dance rules 4 me all e same...

interested 2 noe more...? go check out e links i've put up den...

cheers 4 e labour day weekend~!

~converse all star...

2005-04-22T01:09:00.000+08:00

i've been on a hunt 4 tt elusive pair o coverse shoes...still decidin...but in e meantime...i've been tempted by e much wider range o designs available exclusively in US n on e web...sux...so i'm expectin it wun arrive @ our sunny shores anytime soon...

savour these...{i'm not apologetic 4 pickin most o dem in my fav shade...cos afterall..i'm e 1 who's shoe-huntin...}

even e kids hav it beta than i do...boo...

2 check out e entire range o merchandise fr converse...

let's c...e 1z i've been eyein in s'pore...

actually...dese r e alternatives...e 1 tt i really want ain't featured here...{wunder y dey dun hav it on e web...}
its dis white knee high chuck taylors with pink n purple funky flowers on e inside...so when u fold it down...e flowers r shown on e outside...its damn nice ok...shld've bought e other time dey were havin a sale @ converse...blearghz...think it was goin 4 S$55.60 den...

e alternative provided on e web is dis 1...

cool rite...its like....SOOO....PINK!!! i like...!

e 1 lisa wanted 2 buy looks like dis...she wanted wear it 2 sch de...folded down o course...{think she said sum1 in sch has it le...boo...}

featuring others o similar styles...tt i find 2 my pink-ish taste...

dere's a blaq version 2 dis 1...

n now...even e youths n kids hav it beta den us adults...sux siah...

wth rite...?! only ppl wif small feet can fit in those alrite...lisa mabbe u can try ur luck wif those...

others o notable designs...can consider...haha...

e ppl @ chuck taylor's hav even churned out pumps too!!!

thinkin o gettin a cotton jacket in view o e cumin exams which i'll b takin in e cold hall...

nice...?

comments pls...thanx~!

GOLD WITH HONOURS!!!

2005-04-15T19:24:00.000+08:00

woho~! its obvious fr e title wad dis entry's all abt...

i'll b statin every single nitty-gritty detail i can think o e day's proceedings...so bear wif me...haha...like u've done so all dese while...lolx...

was supposed 2 write lil' msgs on e motivational cards i bought 4 e dancers n giv it 2 dem prior 2 e syf...turns out tt i had yet 2 recover my slp fr wed's 0130...so i was so beat i slept rite after watchin e 9pm show on channel 8...{i noe...its a miracle tt i'm even remotely close 2 e com now...much less e tv...} so i put off e 'motivational writing' till @ 0000 {which basically means midnite 4 e clueless...haha...} unfortunately...i slept thru e incessant ringing o my moblile phone till 0200...haha...i noe 2 full hrs o stupid melody n if i still dun wake up i muz b dead or sth rite...? but i figured tt since i had 2 wake up @ 0500 2 reach sch in time 4 e dance prep...which means i only hav less than 3 hrs o slp left...i mite as well continue slpin...n tt's exactly wad i did...hah.

when i woke @ 0500...i still considered lazin ard till 0530...cos smb i noe gets 2 wake up 1/2 later than me every sch day cos he's a male n doesn't need as much time preparin himself unlike e female species o dis earth...hhmmzz..."but its E BIG DAY!!!" so i managed 2 find my feet n dragged myself outta my room n in2 e toilet...

as usual...which isn't often...haha...i was e 1st 2 reach...{as in e dancers...}. c-in tt e dance studio wasn't open i decided 2 wait in e canteen cos i dun wanna b alone all by myself wif mosquitoes 4 company...urgh.
taking out e motivational cards...i started wif e guyz 1st...haha...n tt was as far as i got...cos aprine had reached den n she saw me n i cldn't possibly continue cld i...so i duh uh...stopped...
{but anyway...i've decided not 2 waste dem n giv dem 2 e girls as congratulatory cards or sth...haha...i hope yr 1z dun get jealous o e yr 2z cards...cos i've had enuff o politics n drama in my life....n i can deal wif so much less...thank u v much.}

soon e dancers began filing in2 e dance studio 2 get their make-up done...thou i do noe e basics...but i dun claim 2 b an expert so i daren't help out...i'm so sorry chee kiang...amir had a fun time wif his hair i think...haha...so *diaoz lo...was sittiin ard dunno doin wad...den...came e hair part...

it was a real hairy issue...literally a hair-crisis man...cos we entered e studio late...e dancers had 2 rush in doin their make-up...n dere r only so many ppl who noe how 2 work e eye-liners n e eyebrow pencil...n we were badly short-handed 2 do e wreaths 4 e girls...i was like freakin out...cos i overdid shella's wreath...e baby's breaths were too full...den e pins had 2 cum off...n painstickingly stuck baq in again...{its really painful cos i kept usin e pins n jabbin @ her scalp...i'm so sorry shell...hope ur head is fine...} n thank goodness 4 amir...haha..."pluck flowers...not to full...pins, amir i need pins!!!" n tt was juz shella's wreath...by e time i was done...dere were only 2 ppl wif wreaths n 15 more 2 go..n time was runnin out....so i freaked out sum more...den i did sham's...did sirong's...did carissa's...in all... ...i think i did less than 5 wreaths...so inefficient...blearghz. n min n denise came sumwhere along e way n helped out n eth n stacey came along too...den e other yr 2z dancers...every1 chipped in 2 help...thank u all so much...i had 2 clean up e place...too much glitter n left-over ribbon fr e dress band...rachel wanted 2 help but i asked her 2 warm-up 1st...dey had a run thou i wldn't say it was their bez...every1 was jittery sumwad i guess...n elizabeth's wreath wasn't done yet...n dey had 2 go up e bus already...{n thank u cheryl jean 4 cumin down 2 support us n runnin outta sch 2 buy e pins we needed...}

listened 2 e song on e bus...haha...exchanged jokes n lame riddles wif amir 2 keep his mind off e competition...n suddenly...we were dere...

i dunno wad u call tt thing where every1 places their hands 2gether...n went..."GO TJ!!!"...sum hugs were exchanged...i rmbed i hugged carissa, aprine, rachel, aiting..." i love u ppl a lot...go dancers!!!"

1st up was NJC...it was a pure int'l dance piece...in short...pure ballet...tutus n all...e guyz were kinda farnie-lookin thou...i think dey hav no proper ballet bkgrd...

2nd was VJC...heard sum stuff bout their piece fr amir n sham previously...its not bad 2 say e least...their lines were relativly clean...its reminds me of fear thou...sham said she liked e last part where every1 starts actin psychotic n tearin their hair n clothes out...quite cool...but its too dark n moody 4 my likin...

den...it was time...

Tis the gift to be simple,
'Tis the gift to be free,
'Tis the gift to come down where we ought to be,
And when we find ourselves in the place just right,
It will be in the valley of love and delight.

When true simplicity is gained,
to bow and to bend, we will not be ashamed
To turn, turn, will be our delight,
'Til by turning, turning, we come round right.

as e 1st strains o 'simplicity' came on...i had my heart in my mouth as i watched dem...everything seemed in place...no colisions...amanda ran in2 space on time...but sumwhere along e way...rachel n yinghuan dropped their smiles...i crossed my fingers during e lifts...alrite...cleared...e turns...e legs....i watched out 4 all o dem..i watched dem dance as a whole...

Tis the gift to be simple,
'Tis the gift to be free,
'Tis the gift to come down where we ought to be,
And when we find ourselves in the place just right,
It will be in the valley of love and delight.

When true simplicity is gained,
to bow and to bend, we will not be ashamed
To turn, turn, will be our delight,
'Til by turning, turning, we come round right.

n it was over...as aiting left e stage...i prayed 4 e bez...

SAJC was after ours...{i juz realised tt all zaki's schs r baq-2-baq...hhmmzz...} dey were technically strong..n their lines were damn clean...v good.

i liked RJC's 1...e costume was pretty...PJC pob had 2b e worst...e song did not match e moves...it was totally wasted...n e guy missed e counting n didn't lift e gal on time...when he finally decided 2 do it...it was so duh uh obvious...i felt so bad 4 him...

my personal favs had 2b e 1 by SAJC n CJC(strawbags...theirs was called 'emotions, emotions...) n AJC(...chairs n balloons 4 props...i wun even hav thot o tt k...)...i like those wif flowy skirts...yes...i'm obsessed wif e flare-out effect...ACJC put up quite a comical 1 thou...hhmmzz...

as we were leavin kallang theatre 4 sch...fish msged me...it was my pw results..."U got band 2!!!" ok...thing is...i was so caught up wif all e dances e release o e results didn't quite get in2 me...but i guess i'm glad ba...n amir as usual managed 2 up my grade n get band 1...*rolls eyes*...i swear lah can...U R SCHOLARSHIP MATERIAL!!! {get tt in ur head soon or i'll whack it...} aiting oso got band 2...think our sch did quite well overall dis yr...majority got band 2 i heard...but i wasn't so concerned about dis...

dance results were 2b out only @ 1400-1500...gosh...tt was like so long...

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

amir tried callin me...cldn't hear a thing so i asked him2 msg me...

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG...

WE GOT GOLD WITH HONOURS!!!

so damn happy lah can...argh...wohoho...

damn proud o u guyz...u guyz totally deserved dis...thank u all 4 all e hard work u've put in...i love u all...

GO DANCERS!!!

{amir...i'm still wanting my syf dance practices...haha...}

~i've fallen...

2005-04-09T12:16:00.000+08:00

woke up feelin like...woah...its damn cold in here...didn't wanna move an inch...my whole body ached like hell...juz cramped out in tt stupid position....tryin 2 re-collect ytd's events...

if u've not guessed it already....i'll affirm it...yesh...i've fallen ill once again...

i hate tt feelin....where all ur limbs feel so darn heavy...ur mind spins eva occassionally...sux...

hah.

but i still had tt last once o energy...n spirit n me....2 do e pirouttes...e piques...cheeneys...

yes...e song is ringin in my head...

i miss dance...e closest i eva got 2 lately was my own private practices...more turns...pushing my bdy 2 do e split tt i so desire...but it nvr cums...think i didn't do enuff warm-up b4 i attempted it last...now dere's dis pullin feelin in right thigh tt goes all e way down when i do 1 o those kicks...

i wanna learn e syf piece even more so after watchin dem in action ytd nite...
i esp. loved rachel's legs...i love e way she delivers her leg movements...aprine's another great dancer...she holds herself v well...a v royalty-ish about her...v nice...den dere's shimin...sumhow...she juz fits in2 e pic seamlessly...yinghuan...i watch herin awe when she does e prances...*groans*...

muz hav been gr8 2 hav parents who r so supportive o ur dancing career...no matter how budding dey r...

if i m 2 reach 1/2 their dancing ability....i hav a hell lot o body-conditioning 2 do...

n ya noe wad...i think e yr 1s r an ok bunch...dey rn't as bad as we{as in e yr2 dancers save 4 amir...}make dem outta b...

"as we turn...as we turn..." rites...i dunno e lyrics....amir can send me e mp3 nxt time i c u online...

auditions was so long ago...livin' in deluion since den...had i went thru it...mabbe i wun hav dis stupid ache eth i c dem...but den again...i'd most prob been ousted all e same...wth...

rock on dancrs...as e 'day o reckoning' {yes amir u did used it correctly...} draws near...i implore u guyz 2 b careful n take care o urselves...

dun like me fall ill hor...

dis goes out 2 all my dear frens too k...take care...

*sniffles sniffles*

~fuck fuck fuck...

2005-04-06T12:15:00.000+08:00

FUCK ETVERY1 N ETH TT R FUCKING HELL GETTIN ON MY NERVES...

FUCK FUCK FUCK...i'm damn farking pissed its unbeliveable...ARGHHHHH!!! i wanna scream e hell outta eth....i mean it...goddamnit lah...

FUCK FUCK FUCK...

i've officially concluded....n convinced myself...tt i'll:
1. b a social recluse n stare @ my farkin notes n e farkin ceiling 24/7
2. n still flunk e 'A' s...

FUCK FUCK FUCK...

i dun understan a single shit tt's going on during math since 4eva....n its even worse dis term....farkin hell; disgusting tis' is...i'm gonna b so dead....i wish i didn't enter JC...

FUCK FUCK FUCK...

FUCK e blardy system...FUCK mrs tag....FUCK my math tutor...FUCK E WHOLE FUCKING WORLD...i hate it!!!

{snarls}

*FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!*

P.S.i'm not a lil' bit sorry 4 making dis entry so FUCKING VULGAR...if u dun like wad u c...u can jolly well get out n go FUCK urselves...

P.P.S. e only thing tt i'm sorry 4 is e lack in originality over e choice o swear words...based on my stelar performance ytd...i'd hav put any chao ah lian 2 shame...knn....kns....ccb...}

~n dis...

2005-04-02T10:43:00.000+08:00

dis song is dedicated 2 every1 who r feelin down...tryin so very hard 2 get 2 where dey want....what dey want...

it seems a nvr-ending journey...but ur almost dere...press on...n rmb...i'll always b dere 4 u...
bez o luck in eth u do...

Sometimes You Can't Make It On Your Own -- U2

Tough, you think you've got the stuff

You're telling me and anyone
You're hard enough

You don't have to put up a fight
You don't have to always be right
Let me take some of the punches
For you tonight

Listen to me now
I need to let you know
You don't have to go it alone

And it's you when I look in the mirror
And it's you when I don't pick up the phone
Sometimes you can't make it on your own

We fight all the time
You and I...that's alright
We're the same soul
I don't need...I don't need to hear you say
That if we weren't so alike
You'd like me a whole lot more

Listen to me now
I need to let you know
You don't have to go it alone

And it's you when I look in the mirror
And it's you when I don't pick up the phone
Sometimes you can't make it on your own

I know that we don't talk
I'm sick of it all
Can - you - hear - me - when - I -
Sing, you're the reason I sing
You're the reason why the opera is in me...

Where are we now?
I've got to let you know
A house still doesn't make a home
Don't leave me here alone...

And it's you when I look in the mirror
And it's you that makes it hard to let go
Sometimes you can't make it on your own
Sometimes you can't make it
The best you can do is to fake it
Sometimes you can't make it on your own

~*~hell hath no fury like a woman's scorn~*~

2005-04-02T09:49:00.000+08:00

ripped dis off amir's blog...i've no idea wad dey actuallly DO mean cos i dun watch simpsons....(yes, yes...so sue me~! i can't watch tv half e sch term 4 god's sake!!!)

You scored as Bart. You are Bart. He hates rules, authority, and being told what to do. He lives life how he wants to.

Bart

67%

Homer

58%

Flanders

42%

Mr. Burns

33%

Marge

33%

Lisa

25%

Grampa Simpson

25%

*what simpson character are you??*
created with QuizFarm.com

~quiz~!

2005-04-01T00:35:00.000+08:00

hey ppl!!!

i made a quiz...4 those who noe me inside out...u beta get get full marks 4 dis 1...if not...ur DEAD...haha...

n here's a harder 1....@ least i think its harder....wohoho...~!

hav fun k...

~2day n ytd...

2005-03-27T00:47:00.000+08:00

i juz went thru an entire tumult o emotions...really...i mean it...(hah...i've been sayin dis a lot lately...)my mood swingx fr 1 end 2 e other @ e flow o noradrenaline liddat...(woah...tt's bio 4 u~! heh heh...k wadeva...)

in a nutshell, i've felt: depressed, tired, numb n now really happy...ok..make it calm...4 now...
n as usual...i shall launch in2 1 o my long drawnout explanations as 2 y i felt...as above-mentioned...

went 2 bugis wif mom n O~ne 2day...left home @ about 1800...btw...4 those in e noe..._'s baq...but nvm..._ can go screw himself n his life 4 all i care...i juz feel nuthin but indifference n numbness now...suddenly promises hold so little 2 me...like blasphemous words...oh fuckit...
baq 2 wad i was bout 2 say...i've since officially concluded tt my bez bestest shopping partner is O~ne...(u go gurl~!) n my mom is...i dunno...BAD when it cums 2 shopping...think she's officially taken e fun outta life...ok, make outta her OWN life...argh...sux lah...

"i grimace when i c dem...e horrors o all horrors is shown distinctly...etched like dark angry scratches...i can't dismis it...dem...cruel ugly scrawls all over e place...a work o art tt has been utterly destroyed...by tt o a thotless mind...i glanace away in shame...wad good issit hopin...n hopin sum more...when all is lost...{@ least 2 me...} i swear by it...i seriously wld like 2 c sum1...or any1 @ all try n fix tt..."

"i've decided tt i'm nuthin' but a f____ u____ l______ g___... b__ c________,c___ 4 h___ l___ l___ a s___ p_____...juz sux lah...can...i keep turnin her down...wad's e use...seriously...juz let it go....already..."
{e above dialogue is a written 2 its entirety by me me n me...N a disclaimer: DUN even try weaselin out wad all those words meant...I WUN BREATHE A SINGLE WORD...yupz...dis applies 2 EVERY1...juz let me wallow in self-pity 4 a lil' while k...promise i'll get outta it...but i think O~ne noes wad's dis all about thou i xie until so han hu...}

now 4 bein tired...

i've let go already...@ least i believe i hav...{n i'm gonna stick 2 it...unless U can prove otherwise...} thou sumtimes i freeze in fear...o e baqlash i mite receive n later chide myself 4 bein e ever cowardly asshole...
i CAN'T BE BOTHERED ANYMORE...wth...i've got my own life 2 lead...wad's e pt o goin baq, cursin ard in e process...i've helped u once...twice...i dunno...@ my most sensible state...i juz giv u e cold shoulder...u get e hint n baq off...n u turn 2 exploit others....by feedin on their so-called disgust...anger...wadeva...
seriously...when is dis shit eva gonna end...blasphemous words...wretched curses...twisted mindsets...-haiz-...but...2 wad end...wad do u achieve...a short burst o triumph...n DEN??? wad's nxt...murder...? hey...i dun claim 2b a saint or ath o tt sort...but i think its time 2 live n let live...an ardous journey' ahead...y tire urself wif all these emotional burden...draggin others down along e way...

i mayb only 18...n i wun dare lay claim 2 havin been thru A LOT...but i noe 4 a fact tt hate will strip u bare n leave u nuthin in e end...
i rmb dis fr e korean movie 'a moment to remember'...

"leave hate with only a very small room in ur heart...so that the rest of the house can be filled with love..."

-haiz-

in view o eth...dis song 4 mom...
The Scientist -- Coldplay

Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are
I had to find you, tell you I need you
Tell you I set you apart
Tell me your secrets, and ask me your questions
Oh let's go back to the start
Running in circles, coming up tails
Heads on a science apart

Nobody said it was easy
Oh it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said that it would be this hard
Oh take me back to the start

I was just guessing at numbers and figures
Pulling the puzzles apart
Questions of science, science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart
Tell me you love me, come back and haunt me
Oh and I rush to the start
Running in circles, chasing our tails
Coming back as we are

Nobody said it was easy
Oh it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard
I'm going back to the start

Oh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh (x4)

~*~hell hath no fury like a woman's scorn~*~

on e way home fr bugis...i had an entire train-set o thots zoomin ALL OVER E PLACE in my head...juz tt my heart juz feels unnaturally calm...like its so disjointed fr all my thots...like heck-care liddat...NUMBNESS kinda overwhelmed me i think...brr...
n ya noe wad...i think i'll make 1 swell o a counsellor...juz tt i dunno if i'll feel like as a long-term career...haha...plus oso e fact tt i'm i'm v opinionated....ok...i noe i'm rambling...blearghz...

reached only 2b drawn 2 a basketball match tt was ocurrin @ e court bhind my hse...nvr b4 in my entire existence on my street...{n its 11 yrs n not-countin...ppl in e noe...will duh-uh noe lah...}n tt says a lot...hav i eva seen such a huge turnout 4 a neighbourhood basketball game...
pulsating hearts...sweaty bods wif beefed-up abs...i juz had 2 c wif my own eyes e cuties galore...

@ least tt was wad i thot b4 i arrived @ e court wif O~ne...

turns out it was a celebrity match against sum v fit uncles on e court...playin a v mean ball o basket...{i absolutely do not meant demean e game...sorry darling...it juz seems rite dis way...} not ur conventional cuties @ least in terms o e celebs i saw...tay ping hui, allan wu, christopher lee, pan ling's ling's hubby...n a few other lower profile actors...names not worth rmb-ing...{haha...i noe...i'm mean when i feel like it!}
saw felicia chin n a v skinny juz-given-birth wong lilin wif her baby girl...damn 4got wad's e younger wu called le...oh well wil find out soon...haha...tabloid fodder...

did e mask O~ne bought 4 me...wah seh...damn refreshin...SHUANG~! i wanna do again O~ne!!! n i think O~ne makes a v good beuty therapist...muz do research ar...den u do e business side...den i do e research side lo...can can rite...?! {makes ye's grow so wide dey occupy 2/3 o my face ala anime characters...woho~!}
den we both tok tok a bit about...its a 4-letter word...anybody wanna hazard a guess??? NO! its NOT TT word lah can?! duh-uh...o course BOYS lah...

been noticing dis cerain 2nd-twice removed cousin o mne been gettin cuter lately{fish u c b4 1...tt time @ parkway...}...NB:i DO NOT go 4 younger guyz 1 hor! but e yes r 4 me 2 c so still can look rite...?!n yesh he's 1 yr younger den me...me n O~ne actually realised tt a LOONNG time ago...but only juz lauched in2 dis discussion about y he always look so put 2gether despite it bein only a family gatherin...in short he's a good-looker...n me n O~ne both decided tt he'll get attached soon enough if he's even interested ingirls ine 1st place...girls out dere...relax...he's v straight...juz tt kown him since young den v farnie if he suddenly act so mature n stuff...ok lah... noe pl grow n all...i mean i'm all o 1.7m le...n he's taller den me...damnned again...
btw...it juz so happened tt he shares e same 1st name as my eye-candy...those who've been an avid reader o my blog since its early days which isn't too long ago i admit wil noe HIM e revered 1 by e name Jonathan...woho...n ya noe wad meowy...its not true tt all short guys r cute leavin guys taller than us 2b ugly...my cousin n eye-cand r ppl o e un-conventional...so dere's still hope 4 us all...yay!!! haha...{roarin hilariously now...tt's y i say i got major mood-swingx 1 k...}

i love O~ne...U noe tt...dun ya...? (xgrinzx wickedly...u beta say yes man!!!)

~n dis...

2005-03-24T23:32:00.000+08:00

dis song took e longest of the lot 2 dl...but i finally got it!!! so happie k...its like damn DAMN NICE k...n me sayin it does not do enuff jutice 2 it...if u wanna listen 2 e song tt i've been going on n on about like since 4 eva (esp. in sch...sorry 2 fish n meow...) if u c me on msn, ask me 4 it n i'll send rite over...

love his lyics...n e music ice juz makes me wanna go...wrap my words around you~! argh!!! y does he hav 2b so talented...i swear if a guy wrote an entire song wif a good melody tt i actaully agree 2 4 ME...tt's IT man...haha...

Wrap My Words Around You -- Daniel Bedingfield

Is it fair to write a song to a woman
Is it fair play to try and win her heart
Is it right to bring her sonnets in the morning time
To express the first few longings when they start
To express the first few longings when they start

Is it right to let her feelings rise to catch you
Is it okay if her love begins to fall
Would you blame me if I wrapped my words around you girl
Would I wrong you if I said anything at all
Would I wrong if I said anything at all

Chorus:
But if I wrap my words around you
Wrap my words around you
If I wrap my words around you
Would you stay would you stay would you
Wrap my words around you
Wrap my words around you
If I wrap my words around
Would you stay
Would it play with your heart

Am I a hunter if I send poems to please you
Am I a cad if I mean everything I said
Should I even let you know this song's about you girl
Just because I want to see you smile today
And my words may bind you to me much too tightly
You may choke on them if we fall apart
It's not fair to write a song to a woman no...
Because a woman takes a song into her heart
Because a woman takes a song into her heart

Chorus:
So let me wrap my words around you
Wrap my words around you
Wrap my words around you
Till you stay till you stay let me
Wrap my words around you
Wrap my words around you
Darling wrap my words around you
Till you stay
Would it play with your heart

~*~hell hath no fury like a woman's scorn~*~

~n dis...

2005-03-24T22:48:00.000+08:00

Almost Here -- Brian McFadden & Delta Goodrem

Did I hear you right
Cos' I thought you said
Let's think it over

You have been my life
And I never planned
Growing old without you

Shadows bleeding through the light
Where a love once shined so bright
Came without a reason

Don't let go of us tonight
Love's not always black and white
But haven't I always loved you?

Chorus:
And when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's not enough
And when I'm with you
I'm close to tears
Cos' you're only almost here

I would change the world
If I had a chance
Oh won't you let me

Treat me like a child
Throw your arms around me
Oh please protect me

Bruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered now it hurts
But haven't I always loved you

Chorus:
And when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's not enough
And when I'm with you
I'm close to tears
Cos' you're only almost here

Bridge

Bruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered now it hurts
Haven't I always loved you

But when I need you, you're almost here
Well I never knew how far behind I left you
And when I hold you, you're almost here
Well I'm sorry that I took our love for granted
And now I'm with you, I'm close to tears
Cos' I know I'm almost here
Only almost here...

~*~hell hath no fury like a woman's scorn~*~

~n dis...

2005-03-24T18:41:00.000+08:00

amir intro-ed me 2 dis song...he juz kinda casually mentioned tt it actually existed..wasn't listenin' much 2 P10 den...now i'm so in2 it(as in e radio station...duh uh...)...but i like dis song...figures...tt's y its here...

Over -- Lindsay Lohan

I watched the world around me crumble
But it's not like I won't do them up again
So here's your last chance for redemption
So take it while it lasts cos' it will end
My tears are turning into time
I've wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye

Chorus:
I can't live without you
Can't breathe without you
I dream about you
Honestly tell me that it's over
Cos' if the world is spinning
And I'm still living
It wouldn't be right if we're not in it together
Tell me that it's over

And I'll be the first to go
Don't wanna be the last to know

I won't be the one to chase you
But at the same time your the heart that I call home
I'm always stuck with these emotions
And the more I try to feel the less that I'm whole
My tears are turning into time
I've wasted trying o find a reason for goodbye

Chorus:
I can't live without you
Can't breathe without you
I dream about you
Honestly tell me that it's over
Cos' if the world is spinning
And I'm still living
It wouldn't be right if we're not in it together
Tell me that it's over

And I'll be the first to go
Yay I'll be the first to go
Don't wanna be the last to know
Over...over..over...over...

My tears are turning into time
I've wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye

Chorus:
I can't live without you
Can't breathe without you
I dream about you
Honestly tell me that it's over
Cos' if the world is spinning
And I'm still living
It wouldn't be right if we're not in it together
Tell me that it's over

Tell me that it's over
Over...
Honestly tell me
Honestly tell me
Don't tell me that it's over
Don't tell me that its over...

~*~hell hath no fury like a woman's scorn*~

~movies tt i've watched...

2005-03-23T22:42:00.000+08:00

m a self-proclaimed film buff...but i seem 2b missin out on a lot...VCDs/DVDs 2 lend any1...?

1.( )Napoleon Dynamite
2.( )Saw
3.()White Noise
4.( )Anger Managment
5.(Y )50 First Dates
6.( )Jason X
7.()Scream
8.( )Scream 2
9.()Scream 3
10.( )Scary Movie
11.( )Scary Movie 2
12.( )Scary Movie 3
13.( )American Pie
14.( )American Pie 2
15.( )American Wedding
16.(Y )Harry Potter
17.(Y)Harry Potter 2
18.(Y) Harry Potter 3
19.( )The Wedding Singer
20.( )Little Black Book
21.(Y)The Village
22.( )Donnie Darko
23.(Y)Lilo & Stitch
24.(Y)Finding Nemo
25.( )Finding Neverland
26.()13 Ghosts
27.()Signs
28.( )The Grudge
29.( )Texas Chainsaw Massacre
30.(Y)White Chicks
31.()Butterfly Effect
32.( )Thirteen
33.()I Robot
34.( )Dodgeball
35.( )A Series Of Unfortunate Events
36.( )Along Came A Spider
37.( )KingPin
38.(Y)Never Been Kissed
39.( )Meet The Parents
40.( )Meet The Fockers
41.( )Eight Crazy Nights
42.(Y)A Cinderella Story
43.()The Terminal
44.( )The Lizzie McGuire Movie
45.( )Passport to Paris
46.( )Dumb & Dumber
47.( )Dumb & Dumberer
48.( )Final Destination
49.()Final Destination 2
50.(Y)Halloween
51.()The Ring
52.(Y)Practical Magic
53.(Y)Chicago
54.()Ghost Ship
55.( )From Hell
56.(Y)Hellboy
57.( )Secret Window
58.( )I Am Sam
59.( )The Whole Nine Yards
60.(Y)The Day After Tomorrow
61.( )Child's Play
62.()Bride of Chucky
63.( )Ten Things I Hate About You
64.()Just Married
65.()Gothika
66.()A Nightmare on Elm Street
67.( )Sixteen Candles
68.( )Joy Ride
69.( )Seven
70.( )Identity
71.( )Lone Star
72.( )Cujo
73.( )A Bronx Tale
74.( )Darkness Falls
75.( )Christine
76.( )IT
77.( )Children of the Corn
78.(Y)Maid in Manhattan
79.( )Frailty
80.(Y)How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
81.( )She's All That
82.( )Calender Girls
83.( )Sideways
84.(Y)Ever After
85.( )Forrest Gump
86.( )Big Trouble in Little China
87.(Y)Jeepers Creepers
88.()Jeepers Creepers 2
89.(Y)Catch Me If You Can
90.(Y)The Others
91.(Y)Freaky Friday
92.()Reign of Fire
93.(Y)Cruel Intentions
94.(Y)The Hot Chick
95.()Swimfan
96.( )Miracle
97.( )Old School
98.( )Ray
99.()The Notebook
100.( )K-Pax
101.(Y)The Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring
102.(Y) The Lord of the Rings: The 2 Towers
103.(Y)The Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King
104.(Y)A Walk to Remember
105.( )Boogeyman
106.( )Hitch
107.( ) Back Door Sluts 9
108.( ) The Fifth Element
109.( )Troop Beverly Hills
110.(Y) Starwars: A New Hope.
111.( ) Swimming with Sharks
112.( ) Trainspotting
113.( ) People under the stairs
114.( ) Blue Velvet
115.(Y) Sound of Music
116.(Y) Parent Trap
117.( ) The Burbs
118.( ) SLC Punk
119.( ) Meet Joe Black
120.( ) Wild girls
121.( ) A Clockwork Orange
122.( ) The Order
123.(Y)SpiderMan
124.(Y) Spider Man 2
125.( ) Amelie

happy birthday darling~!

2005-03-18T23:25:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY charmaine darling!!!

u turn 18 2day...so how was it..? cool not...? heh heh...hoped u had fun 2day despite it bein a long day in sch...

will b c-in ya tmr...so take care till den!!! *muah*!!!

~happenings...

2005-03-18T23:10:00.000+08:00

i'm really really suck when it cums 2 bein on time 4 absolutely anything @ all...

set e alarm 4 0600...responded 2 my hp alarm...decided tt i'll hav a lil' lie-in since i was early n eth...so extended it 2 0630...when 0630 came...my fingers became SO accustomed 2 findin e buttons 2 off e darn jarring sound...n i continued slpin...recipe 4 lateness...dere u go...

was late 4 chem make-up tutorial 4 1/2 hr...n i'm e chem rep...wad a load o bullshit siah me...haha...i nvr eva seem 2 get 2 places on time de...disgustin habit...i do try ya noe...juz mabbe not hard enuff...hah. crap lah me...

went tm wif fish n meowy 2 check out e levi's i wanna buy e price n colour...i only rmbed it bein type 593...haha...cos _xiao_gu_ offered 2 help me find it in hk...mabbe cheaper dere or sth...heh heh...if its more than S$104...dun buy hor...i mite as well buy in s'pore...

tried bk's mushroom swiss 4 e 1st time...*gasps* i noe...i v lag rite...cos i'm all 4 familiarity...tt's y i dun like 2 venture outta my comfort zone...blardy pampered brat is me...so...? but if need b i'll do sth about it 1 de...juz not e type 2 initiate it...figures...anyway e verdict is bk's bbq turkey bacon n cheese still RAWKS 4EVA!!! its e 1 n only thing i'll eva eat nxt time i go bk...make it 4 e rest o my pathetic life lah huh...

nxt stop was 2 e airport...thot i was only sendin _xiao_gu_ off...sekali i saw nearly e entire entourage o e _'s side o e family...minus grandpa n uncle lawrence...wunderful...clearly _xiao_gu_ left out tt minor detail o e hk trip bein a family 1...nice...oh well wadeva...juz fely kinda weird about dem...i think dey can kinda feel a lil' indifference emantin fr me...e eyes hav it all...wth...4get e eyes...i juz can feel it lah...dey ask after O~ne..."she didn't cum..." duh uh...i came fr sch lehz...haiyah...dunno lah...juz feel chao sian diao lo...

brought home e taiyang bing{loosely translated as sun biscuit...thou it looks far fr it lah...haha...} _xiao_gu_ bought fr taiwan last wk n aunt lena giv me n O~ne e bags...

was worried sick e whole journey home...how e hell m i gonna explain all e da bao xiao bao 2 my mom...tt dey all materialised in fronta me n i juz grabbed dem...?! or e truth...thou i noe she'll juz blardy as hell flipped n hit e oof n throw all e stuff n swearin n...u get e idea lah huh...den lie 2 her in e face meh...? pls lo...ppl who ne me well enff noe tt i'm e worst fibber alive siah...all e tips like 'keep a lie small' all dun do any wonders 4 me 1...den again, i still believe tt if u ask me no questions, i shall tell u no lies...yah rite...fat hope my mom wun ask about all e stuff i'm carryin...

but thank god...thank god man...i swear...my mom WASN'T HOME!!! wohoho...chop-chop hid all e stuff in my rm...yeah, settled...relief siah...

now muz think how 2 break 2 her e news o e soon 2 b 'materialised' levi's jeans...hhmmzz...suggestions any1...?

~hello kitty...

2005-03-18T23:04:00.000+08:00

i love hello kitty...like 2 e core ok...
was kinda bored lah..so went online 2 check-out e latest hello kitty products...
got too many stuff i wanna buy dere...shan't tok about it...kinda depressin 2 noe tt ur broke...

anyway...here's my hello kitty horoscope k...its v accurate...if u guyz wan ur hello kitty horoscope...i've put up a link 2 sanrio.com...juz place ur cursor over e 'hello kitty' word on e 1st column n ur good 2 go!!! hav fun~!

realli sorry if e words r kinda blur...but tt's e bez i can do...sorry peepos...

~my heart will go on..hah.

2005-03-18T22:39:00.000+08:00

ripped dis off fish's blog...think its damn cute n cool siah...whoeva thot o dis is like...SO SMART...swell...read on folks...

Yes, ... how can I help you?

Customer: Well, after much consideration, I've decided to install Love. Can you guide me though the process?

Tech Support: Yes. I can help you. Are you ready to proceed?

Customer: Well, I'm not very technical, but I think I'm ready. What do I do first?

Tech Support: The first step is to open your Heart. Have you located your Heart?

Customer: Yes, but there are several other programs running now. Is it okay to install Love while they are running?

Tech Support: What programs are running ?

Customer: Let's see, I have Past Hurt, Low Self-Esteem, Grudge and Resentment running right now.

Tech Support: No problem, Love will gradually erase Past Hurt from your current operating system. It may remain in your permanent memory but it will no longer disrupt other programs. Love will eventually override Low Self-Esteem with a module of its own called High Self-Esteem. However, you have to completely turn off Grudge and Resentment. Those programs prevent Love from being properly installed. Can you turn those off ?

Customer: I don't know how to turn them off. Can you tell me how?

Tech Support: With pleasure. Go to your start menu and invoke Forgiveness. Do this as many times as necessary until Grudge and Resentment have been completely erased.

Customer: Okay, done! Love has started installing itself. Is that normal?

Tech Support: Yes, but remember that you have only the base program. You need to begin connecting to other Hearts in order to get the upgrades.

Customer: Oops! I have an error message already. It says, "Error - Program not run on external components." What should I do?

Tech Support: Don't worry. It means that the Love program is set up to run on Internal Hearts, but has not yet been run on your Heart. In non-technical terms, it simply means you have to Love yourself before you can Love others.

Customer: So, what should I do?

Tech Support: Pull down Self-Acceptance; then click on the following files: Forgive-Self; Realize Your Worth; and Acknowledge your Limitations.

Customer: Okay, done.

Tech Support: Now, copy them to the "My Heart" directory. The system will overwrite any conflicting files and begin patching faulty programming. Also, you need to delete Verbose Self-Criticism from all directories and empty your Recycle Bin to make sure it is completely gone and never comes back.

Customer: Got it. Hey! My heart is filling up with new files. Smile is playing on my monitor and Peace and Contentment are copying themselves all over My Heart. Is this normal?

Tech Support: Sometimes. For others it takes awhile, but eventually everything gets it at the proper time. So Love is installed and running. One more thing before we hang up. Love is Freeware. Be sure to give it and its various modules to everyone you meet. They will in turn share it with others and return some cool modules back to you.

~my sign...

2005-03-18T01:06:00.000+08:00

Aquarius - Your Love Profile

Your positive traits:

You've got a ton of friends, so you have no problem meeting new people.

You're great at thinking up new things and actitives to do with your sweetie.

You tend to let the little things slide in relationships... and focus on the bigger picture.

Your negative traits:

In relationships, it tends to be your way or the highway.

You can never open up completely to someone - you have to keep parts of yourself secret.

You're cold and reserved, which leaves your partner feeling unloved.

Your ideal partner:

Flexible, because you're not going to be the one to compromise!

Is smart and quirky with lots of weird interests... including you.

A true indivdualist who doesn't care what anyone thinks

Your dating style:

Stimulating. You prefer dates that explore a shared interest - like a lecture, muesum tour, or concert.

Your seduction style:

Wacky. Your wild ideas have your lover wondering what's next.

Insatiable - it takes a lot to satisfy your desires.

Varied. You're eager to try things as soon as you learn about them.

Tips for the future:

Bring a little responsibility to your relationship - like showing up for dates!

Compromise a little. It would kill you to do things your lover's way for once.

Be aware of your parnter's jealousy. Even though you aren't jealous, realize your partner is sometimes.

Best place to meet someone online:

Match.com - there's enough singles to find offbeat dates and tons of romantic adventure

Best color to attract mate: Sky blue

Best day for a date: Wednesday

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~wad gender is my brain...?

2005-03-14T22:21:00.000+08:00

ripped dis off ruby jie jie's blog...haha...dunno considered good or bad thou...

Your Brain is 86.67% Female, 13.33% Male

You have the brain of a girly girl

Which isn't a bad thing at all

You're emphatetic, caring, and in tune with emotions.

You're a good friend and give great advice.

What Gender Is Your Brain?

~dis is so 'smack-face'...geez...

2005-03-14T14:38:00.000+08:00

ripped dis quiz off fish's blog...i dun like e pic...so ugly lehz...

You are 'juggling'. Jugglers, tumblers, and other
street performers were a very popular sort of
entertainment once, before movies and talkies
and online quizzes supplanted them.

You like to put on a show for people, and they like
to watch. You are friendly and well-liked,
particularly for your sense of humor, although
you sometimes play with people's heads. You
are frequently the center of attention, and you
like it that way. However, you have to realize
that the world does not revolve around you.
Furthermore, you have to learn that your
light-hearted antics are not appropriate to all
situations. Your problem is that juggling has
been obsolete for a long time.

What obsolete skill are you?
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~wad age do i act..?

2005-03-14T00:56:00.000+08:00

You Are 19 Years Old

19

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.

13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.

20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.

30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!

40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

~wad kinda friend m i...? u tell me...

2005-03-14T00:54:00.000+08:00

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You Are A Loyal Sidekick

While you aren't the most visable one in your group...

You're always up for a good time or conversation

And you stick with your friends no matter what

You may feel underappreciated - but it only seems that way!

What Kind of Friend Are You?

~wad's my Irish name...?

2005-03-14T00:51:00.000+08:00

Your Irish Name Is...

Izett O'Leary

What's your Irish Name?

~wad yr i belong 2...hhmmz...

2005-03-14T00:45:00.000+08:00

You Belong in 1981

1981

If you scored...

1950 - 1959: You're fun loving, romantic, and more than a little innocent. See you at the drive in!

1960 - 1969: You are a free spirit with a huge heart. Love, peace, and happiness rule - oh, and drugs too.

1970 - 1979: Bold and brash, you take life by the horns. Whether you're partying or protesting, you give it your all!

1980 - 1989: Wild, over the top, and just a little bit cheesy. You're colorful at night - and successful during the day.

1990 - 1999: With you anything goes! You're grunge one day, ghetto fabulous the next. It's all good!

What Year Do You Belong In?

~wad's my seduction style...geez...

2005-03-14T00:42:00.000+08:00

Your Seduction Style: The Dandy

You're a non-traditionalist, not limited by gender roles or expectations.
Your sexuality is more fluid than that - and you defy labels or categories.
It's hard to pin you down, and that's what's fascinating about you.
You have the psychology of both a male and a female, and you can relate to anyone.

What Is Your Seduction Style?

~A lvl's!!!

2005-03-04T20:10:00.000+08:00

e yr 2s got baq their a lvl results 2day...was actually suddenly superbly worried 4 dem after hearin' mrs lim's pa announcement bout how e sch fared dis yr...

basically i'd say it was a marked improvement fr last yr...1 in 3 got 3 a's...but dere were tears n all...sad 1z still...

suddenly decided tt i juz mite not make it...i DO want my 3 a's...god...tt'll b like a god-sent gift...

-haiz-we'll c...

btw...congrats 2 all e yr 2s who did well...

~wad e hell is wrong wif me…

2005-03-04T20:08:00.000+08:00

ok...so this may have been over a week...its been exactly a week to tell you the truth...but even though it may seem all'hi' 'bye' and stuff like that...and things are supposely back to normal...you can say i'm still in this self-denial rut...argh...

sure...i'm the walking tabloid...i rattle facts about the latest star gossip and the like...in short...i know A LOT of stuff that i shouldn't know...at least not pay so much attention to...considering my less than glamorous grades and all...

and i thought i know better now...or maybe previously...used to shoot my mouth off about every nitty-gritty detail i heard/found out...to the extent of becoming publicists for some of my closer friends...its horrible i know...argh...

thus...the point of this entry is that i've yet again sinned...sinned for shooting my mouth off about something i should've bloody hell act like i didn't know anything about...except that this time its my expression that gave the game away...stupid oaf i was...and still am...i never seem to learn...

i gave my word to not to breathe a word...to a very good friend of mine...but i still kinda blew his/her cover...

i'm really sorry that it happened...argh...qian yan wan yu...jiu yi ju 'dui bu qi' dou wu fa mi bu wo suo fan xia de zui xing...dan wo hai shi xi wang wo men hai shi hao peng you...

Honto ni gomenasai...

trust me(pun unintended)...i know better now...

~200 things tt i hav done...mite do...or wanna do...

2005-03-01T21:32:00.000+08:00

its finally done!!! e 200 Q quiz....nearly died doin it...i think u guyz will die readin it too...but ppl who actually made thru e entire list...pls leave ur mark @ e comments thing k...pretty pls..?{smiles britely} n i'm cool if u wanna do e same quiz on ya on blog...if u hav e time...haha...n thanx 2 fish 4 e quiz...2 begin wif...

01. Bought everyone in the pub a drink -- i juz turnd legal...wth...i haven even start clubbin' yet!
02. Swam with wild dolphins -- dey r non-existent in s'pore unless ur tokkin' bout e remaning 2 in underwater world...e poor things...
03. Climbed a mountain -- a mountain is oso non-existent here...wth...i didn't even do mt. bukit timah siah...haha...
04. Taken a Ferrari for a test drive -- can't drive yet...buut realisin' my dream...soon...i hope...
05. Been inside the Great Pyramid -- nopez...nvr been tt far away fr home...will do tt soon too...haha...
06. Held a tarantula -- snakes count or not...all reptiles mah...got pics 2 show too!!!
07. Taken a candlelit bath with someone -- unattached siah...no-link...
08. Said 'I love you' and meant it. -- pls c above...
09. Hugged a tree -- yupz...orientation camp lo...
10. Done a striptease -- duh no~! dun c myself doin it in e far future either...hah.
11. Bungee jumped -- hell no...no guts can...
12. Visited Paris -- will confirm plus chop do dis...SOON...
13. Watched a lightning storm at sea -- yupz...tt time when i was onboard a cruise ship...rocky nite it was...
14. Stayed up all night long, and watch the sun -- i suck when it cums 2 stayin up late...i nvr last past 4am unless my hubbiez r on tv...haha...tried doin in tt time in bangkok when i was 15...failed thou...cldn't wakeup early after all e havoc shoppin...
15. Seen the Northern Lights -- no lo...wad northern lights...i haven even c a single brite spark in my life siah...haha...
16. Gone to a huge sports game -- e largest has gotta b e 4-sch meet @ sec sch...cchs sports weren't v good 2 begin wif...count lah...
17. Walked the stairs to the top of the leaning Tower of Pisa -- no...will do tt too...
18. Grown and eaten your own vegetables -- e 2 plots o agricultural land in my home is now oso non-existent...
19. Touched an iceberg -- nvr been tt lucky or tt far fr home...
20. Slept under the stars -- yuz...ok...it was under a tent...but can lah rite...?
21. Changed a baby's diaper -- nopez...i'm hopeless wif babies...their too delicate 4 my likin...
22. Taken a trip in a hot air balloon -- no...but wld love 2...haha...
23. Watched a meteor shower -- e f4 show count or not...haha...
24. Gotten drunk on champagne -- no...not gonna happen anytime soon too...i can't stand taste o alcohol...
25. Given more than you can afford to charity -- nah...i'm charitable...juz not TT charitable only...hah.
26. Looked up at the night sky through a telescope -- nopez...wasn't really in2 astronomy 2 begin wif...
27. Had an uncontrollable giggling fit at the worst possible moment -- duh...i do hav fits @ all e wrong times...except tt recently i've skipped e gigglin part n juz went straight 2 a full-fledged roar...its e bez medicine anyway...so no harm done...
28. Had a food fight -- it involved transferrin food fr my plate 2 my sis's plate wif her transferrin dem all baq again...
29. Bet on a winning horse -- dun really believe in gambling...haha
30. Taken a sick day when you're not ill -- not tt i rmb...@ least 4 my case, i was juz mia...haha...
31. Asked out a stranger -- hell no...
32. Had a snowball fight -- i dun live in a snow-laden city but i wanna try!!!
33. Photocopied your bottom on the office photocopier -- nah...dumb siah...
34. Screamed as loudly as you possibly can -- yupz...@ loads o things...u dun wanna try...
35. Held a lamb -- yupz...e other time @ e farm in sec sch...it was a relatively new-born i think...
36. Organized and planned a surprise party for a loved one -- will do 1...soon ba...haha...
37. Taken a midnight skinny dip -- no...its like damn cold rite...?!
38. Taken an ice cold bath -- yupz...it didn't feel v cold...haha...
39. Had a meaningful conversation with a beggar -- nopez...we will nvr share e same frequency...hah.
40. Seen a total eclipse -- yupz...twice summore...haha...
41. Ridden a roller coaster -- yupz...sit until no-kick le...
42. Hit a home run -- think so...those we play durin pe counted rite...?
43. Fit three weeks miraculously into three days -- NO WAY tt will eva happened...i suck too @ time management...
44. Danced like a fool and not cared who was looking -- yupz...all e time too...4 tt matter...haha
45. Adopted an accent for an entire day -- yupz...think it was 2 irritate my sis...i succeeded btw...
46. Visited the birthplace of your ancestors -- nopez...didn't hav tt oppurtunity...sadx...
47. Actually felt happy about your life, even for just a moment -- yupz...i'm not tt pessimistic 1 k...
48. Had two hard drives for your computer -- yupz...i do hav a need 4 dem...all e pics n songx...haha...
49. Visited all 50 states -- s'pore has only 4 states...e solid, liquid n gaseous states plus itself...E STATE...hah...so u say leh...
50. Loved your job for all accounts -- previously..yah....now i like eth bout it save 4 e blady exams n tests...
51. Taken care of someone who was really sick -- i wld make a v bad nurse...let darlin do e job *winkx*
52. Had enough money to be truly satisfied -- NO WAY WILL TT EVA HAPPEN...I SWEAR...i've an insatiable lust 4 all things PINK!!!
53. Had amazing friends -- all e time...n thank god 4 dem...u noe who u r...
54. Danced with a stranger in a foreign country -- nopez...mite try soon...haha...
55. Watched wild whales -- on tv counted rite...?
56. Stolen a sign -- stolen...yah...but beta stuff den signs...hah.
57. Backpacked in Europe -- intend 2 do tt after i graduate fr e U...
58. Taken a road-trip -- tt too...after U...
59. Rock climbing -- got sticks 4 arms...no abs...how 2 climb...?!
60. Lied to foreign government's official in that country to avoid notice -- nah...dun will eva do oo...no guts...
61. Midnight walk on the beach -- nopez...can't stay up tt late outside...
62. Sky diving -- nopez...i do wan my ears 1 ya noe...n i get air-sick anyway...
63. Visited Ireland -- soon ba...haha...
64. Been heartbroken longer then you were actually in love -- nopez...nvr played e game o love b4...haha...
65. In a restaurant, sat at a stranger's table and had a meal with them -- nah...will feel damn farnie...
66. Visited Japan -- CONFIRM PLUS CHOP WILL B SOON DE...mate kudasai!!!
67. Bench pressed your own weight -- wth...
68. Milked a cow -- nopez...seen it b4 thou...seemed quite interesting...haha...
69. Alphabetized your records -- dey arranged accordin 2 date o purchase...
70. Pretended to be a superhero -- nah...not really in2 stuff like tt...
71. Sung karaoke -- yupz...tt time @ kbox wif ven, lisa, amal, tobias n O~ne...
72. Lounged around in bed all day -- tt time when i juz had my op...i swear it absolutely sux...so b careful o wad u wish 4...
73. Protested something you feel strongly against -- personal agenda against ppl who dare 2 b who dey wanna b...
74. Scuba diving -- nopez...but mite try...
75. Got it on to "Let's Get It On" by Marvin Gaye -- no...who e hell is tt anyway...
76. Kissed in the rain -- nopez...pls refer 2 above...
77. Played in the mud -- yupz...didn't like it 1 bit...all e mud makin squishy noises...pukez...
78. Played in the rain -- yupz...who haven't...
79. Gone to a drive-in theater -- nopez...no such luck yet...
80. Done something you should regret, but don't regret it -- loads o such instances...shan't list dem all...too lazy...
81. Visited the Great Wall of China -- yupz...@ 13...on my own...!!!(in a certain sense...yah...)
82. Discovered that someone who's not supposed to have known about your blog has discovered your blog -- think so ba..dunno...
83. Dropped Windows in favor of something better -- nopez...unless mozilla sorta counts...
84. Started a business -- nopez...thou dere was tok o it in sec 4...
85. Fallen in love and not had your heart broken -- N.A...
86. Toured ancient sites -- yupz...loves e feel dey giv...
87. Taken a martial arts class -- nopez....
88. Swordfought for the honor of a woman -- farnie Q siah...u think miedieval times ah...?!
89. Played D&D for more than 6 hours straight? -- nopez...got beta things 2 do can...
90. Gotten married -- nopez...c above ok..?!
91. Been in a movie -- no such luck yet...haha...
92. Crashed a party -- nopez....4 wad siah...
93. Loved someone you shouldn't have -- ermz....think so...
94. Kissed someone so passionately it made them dizzy -- nopez..haha...
95. Gotten divorced -- i wasn't even attched 2 begin wif...
96. Started an office war -- nopez...
97. Gone without food for 5 days -- can't last beyond 24hrs...5 days..siao ah...?!
98. Made cookies from scratch -- sorta...well @ least learnt 2 do so...
99. Won first prize in a costume contest -- nopez...was nvr e awards kind either...
100. Ridden a gondola in Venice -- nopez...nvr been dere...will go 1 thou~!
101. Gotten a tattoo -- fake 1...it was a glittery pink butterfly...turned holey on e 2nd day...but lasted 4 more than a wk...hah.
102. Found that the texture of some materials can turn you on -- wth siah...i'm not perverted can...?!
103. Rafted the Snake River -- nopez...i can't even paddle 4 long...anyway...wad raft?!
104. Been on television news programs as an "expert" -- nopez...expert on wad siah...mabbe nxt time if i do bcum a cosmetics expert...haha...
105. Got flowers for no reason -- nopez...heh heh...i got 1 fr fish tt time during dancenite...so happy siah!!!
106. Made out in a public place -- 4 e last time...i'm NOT ATTACHED!!!
107. Got so drunk you don't remember anything -- juz turned legal...didn't run e risk o bein bounced out b4...
108. Been addicted to some form of illegal drug -- nopez...i'm clean...
109. Performed on stage -- yupz...since young siah...but still get stage fright all e time...
110. Been to Las Vegas -- nopez...soon soon...
111. Recorded music -- ripped off music fr discs yes...tt counted...?
112. Eaten shark -- yah...juz e fin thou...its a chinese delicacy...
113. Drank an entire 6 pack by yourself -- not tt power yet...if its bird's nest i mite consider...haha...
114. Gone to Thailand -- juz came baq actually 4 tt matter...shopping spree...havoc man!!!
115. Seen Siouxsie live -- who e hell is tt...?
116. Bought a house -- will 1...but i think i'll settle 4 a condo wif my O~ne
117. Been in a combat zone -- nopez...pray tt i nvr will...
118. Buried one/both of your parents -- nopez...she doesn't wan 2b buried when she dies...
119. Shaved all of your hair off -- when i was an infant...yah...duh uh...
120. Been on a cruise ship -- plenty o times when i was young...
121. Spoken more than one language fluently -- yepz...if not wad's e blardy damn bilingual policy 4...?!
122. Gotten into a fight while attempting to defend someone -- not really ba..even if hav it was 2 protect myself...in short...self-defense...
123. Bounced a check -- can't issue checks...juz yet...
124. Performed in theatre -- nopez...can't act...thou i'm a drama on my own...haha...@ least my tutor says so...
125. Read - and understood - your credit report -- yupz...it says 1 thing all e time...i'm damn broke...haha...lil' wunder anway...considerin e way i spend...
126. Raised children -- my O~ne counted...?
127. Recently bought and played with a favorite childhood toy -- yepz...her name's hello kitty...
128. Followed your favorite band/singer on tour a little -- 5566...tt time when i wasn't even done wif my o level's...hah.
129. Created and named your own constellation of stars -- not a constellation..juz a lone star...its a gift fr another webby on my b'dae...i named it e 28_superstars...
130. Taken a bicycle tour in a foreign country -- nopez...if i'm in a foreign country...i dun think i'll travel dis way...haha...
131. Found out something significant that your ancestors did -- yah...like how gambling was e family pastime...wth...
132. Called or written your Congress person -- nopez...congress is non-existent here too...
133. Picked up and moved to another city to just start over -- about 2 i think...except tt its e same city we're tokkin about...haha...s'pore isn't v big 2 begin wif...
135. Walked the Golden Gate Bridge -- nopez..haven been 2 e big apple yet...i noe mr. ng wants 2 go dere badly thou...haha
136. Sang loudly in the car, and didn't stop when you knew someone was looking -- yupz...even if my relatives were in e car...heck care dem siah...
137. Had an abortion -- nopez...but close enuff...haha...
138. Had plastic surgery -- nopez...but close enuf too...
139. Survived an accident that you shouldn't have survived -- nopez...i do intend 2 live my life fruitfully k...
140. Wrote articles for a large publication -- dis blog big enuf publication 4 me...so yes...
141. Lost over 100 pounds -- how much is tt...but i noe i've lost a conssiderably a lot o weight recently thou...
142. Held someone while they were having a flashback -- i gotta ask O~ne on dis 1...haha...
143. Piloted an airplane -- nopez...i can't even handle myself let alone a plane...haha...
144. Petted a stingray -- nopez...not even my hse koi fish siah...snakes yes thou...
145. Broken someone's heart -- mabbe...i gotta ask ard 2 actually noe 4 sure...
146. Helped an animal give birth -- nopez...seen a cow miscarriage thou...
147. Been fired or laid off from a job -- m v proud 2 say i didn't hav e misfortune 2 hav a taste o tt...
148. Won money on a TV game show -- sadly no...
149. Broken a bone -- yepz...teeth counted...?
150. Killed a human being -- insects yes...i hate 'em...
151. Gone on an African photo safari -- nopez...didn't get e chance 2 venture beyond e shores o SEA...
152. Ridden a motorcycle -- nopez...dunthink eva will...
153. Driven any land vehicle at a speed of greater than 100mph -- think so...bicycle...?
154. Had a body part of yours below the neck pierced -- nopez...sliced yes thou...
155. Fired a rifle, shotgun, or pistol -- nopez...not in uniform grps...
156. Eaten mushrooms that were gathered in the wild -- nopez...dun go on field trips often...make it nvr...
157. Ridden a horse -- yuzp once when i was 10 in a Jarkata zoo...it was awhite pony 4 e record...
158. Had major surgery -- kinda...@ least according 2 my mom it is...
159. Ridden on a passenger train -- yupz once in China goin 2 WU YI Shan...sat 4 6hrs straight..i didn't hav a butt after tt...
160. Had a snake as a pet -- nopez...it was always fishes or dogs...
161. Hiked to the bottom of the Grand Canyon -- nopez...nvr sat foot in USA...
162. Slept through an entire flight: takeoff, flight, and landing -- nopez...i get air-sick k...
163. Slept for more than 30 hours over the course of 48 hours -- yupz...when i was under general anaesthesia...
164. Visited more foreign countries than U.S. states -- no way man...
165. Visited all 7 continents -- i think i juz mentioned tt i've only been 2 asia my entire life...
166. Taken a canoe trip that lasted more than 2 days -- nopez...can't canoe...
167. Eaten kangaroo meat -- yupz...juz dunno whether its real or fake...
168. Fallen in love at an ancient Mayan burial ground -- nopez...i dunno where e hell dis place i btw...
169. Been a sperm or egg donor -- no way is tt gonna happen...
170. Eaten sushi -- all e time...its liddat when u hav a O~ne like mine...hmph.
171. Had your picture in the newspaper -- nopez...dun wan anyway...
172. Had 2 (or more) healthy romantic relationships for over a year in your lifetime -- nvr had 1 2 begin wif...
173. Changed someone's mind about something you care deeply about -- yupz....it involved sum drama show...haha...
174. Gotten someone fired for their actions -- not yet...unless u really piss me off on a day when i'm havin major mood swingx...haha...
175. Gone back to school -- didnt quit sch...n dun wanna...
176. Parasailed -- huh...?!
177. Changed your name -- considering...
178. Petted a cockroach -- hell no...i hate 'em 2 e core k...pet dem..siao!
179. Eaten fried green tomatoes -- nopez...fried red tomatoes...yesh!
180. Read The Iliad -- nopez...sounds awfully familiar thou...
181. Selected one "important" author who you missed in school, and read -- authors tt were impt 2 me..nvr cum 2 schs i attend...
182. Dined in a restaurant and stolen silverware, plates, cups because your apartment needed -- i'm pathetic..juz not quite dere yet...
183. ...and gotten 86'ed from the restaurant because you did it so many times, they figured out it was you -- haha...
184. Taught yourself an art from scratch -- yupz...
185. Killed and prepared an animal for eating -- nopez...i dun think i can handle it...
186. Apologized to someone years after inflicting the hurt -- yupz...i'm still genuinely sorry...
187. Skipped all your school reunions -- about dere...
188. Communicated with someone without sharing a common spoken language -- nopez...
189. Been elected to public office -- nopez...its a lot o hardwork i think...{watches fish closely...}
190. Written your own computer language -- nah...not smart enuf...
191. Thought to yourself that you're living your dream -- nvr...cos its a living hell-hole here...
192. Had to put someone you love into hospice care -- nopez...not time yet...
193. Built your own PC from parts -- i didn't wanna learn...
194. Sold your own artwork to someone who didn't know you -- i didn't sell it...i gav 2 my biao jie...
195. Had a booth at a street fair -- had a booth...but it was no street fair...
196: Dyed your hair blue -- yupz...it was a temporary hair spray...
197: Been a DJ -- nopez...wun b able 2 handle dis 1 either...
198: Found out someone was going to dump you via LiveJournal -- i hav 2b attached 4 tt 2 happen rite...?!
199: Written your own role playing game -- not smart enuf...hardly play dem nowadays anyway...
200: Been arrested -- kenna kb by tong...tt's arrestment enuf 4 me...

~how much is a life worth...?

2005-02-27T22:05:00.000+08:00

was lookin thru e g 'war n terrorism' series when i came across dis comprehension passage...it was far too insightful...i cldn't pass up e chance 2 include sum super meaningful lines fr e article...lest it bcums another 1 o those times where i said tt i'll type...but in e end nvr do...

adapted from Dark Nature -- Lyall Watson

To ensure successful reproduction, most human societies formalise a breeding relationship with some kind of alliance or marriage which usually means exclusive sexual access. This often leads to men all over the world thinking about women in propriety terms and exercising extraordinary double standards. The very word aldultery betrays the bias. it derives from the Latin adulterare, which means 'to make impure, spurious, or inferior by adding extraneous or improper ingerdients'. In other words, it remains - as it has through all of animal behaviour - a question which touches on male doubts about paternity. With these doubts comes righteous anger and sexual jealousy sufficient to account for the vast majority of wife beatings, and most of the murders of women in marriage.

This confusion of women with property spills over into revenge killings by men who cannot easily let women go. every police file includes such cases, but there are very few known examples of vengeful murders by jilted housewives or lovers. The few that do come to light make news and controversial feature films such as Fatal Attraction. Sometimes the men also kill themselves and several, apparently obsessed with the possible infidelity which brought their paternity into doubt, kill their entire families as well.

Familicide, is perhaps the most horrifying aberration of genetic pressure, leading someone to carry out a course of action which is spectacualrly futile and devastating to his or her own interest, just for the sake of inflicting damge on someone who appeardsto have put an investment at risk. Such acts are very difficult to justify in Darwinian terms. They make no biological sense, they are beyond ordinary comprehension and appear to have no counterpart in natural history, but they touch some human nerve because they play a powerful part in myth and drama as 'The Medea Syndrome'.

She, you may remember, was grievously wronged by Jason, who abandoned her for a younger woman. But Medea was no helpless victim. rejecting the option of suicide with the words: "It's not the dying I dread, but the thought of leaving my enemies alive and laughing at my corpse," she took her evenge by wiping out not only the entire royal house of Conrith, but also her own two sons, whom she butchered with a knife. With that act alone, taken without the biological pressures that can make some infanticides appropriate or at least understandable, Medea overcomes one of our most basic instincts, one of the genes insist on more than any other, and becomes something unnatural. A mistress of the black arts. Heroic perhaps, but definitely evil, by any definition.

There is only one other homicidal pattern that rivals Medea for apparent biological futility, but is far more common and even popular in the sense that it seems somehow appropriate, whatever the cost - and that is the revenge of for eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth, evening the score. It is a practice that has been condemned by the best tacticians of our time. Winston Churchill said of it: "Nothing is more costly, nothing more sterile, than vengeance." And yet it sems to have been a feature of almost every culture ever studied, in many of it assumes the status of a sacred obligation.

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dere's more 2 dis passage than wad i've juz typed...if u wanna read e whole article...u'll juz hav 2 ask me 4 it...haha...{sticks tongue out..}

i'd like 2 hear every1's comments on dis...thou its only part o e passage...

in case u didn't realise...e link 4 'comments' is juz above e flower border...do comment loads...but dun 4get 2 leave a tag 2 announce ur presence~!
thanx ppl~! =D

~i changed my blog's layout!!!

2005-02-27T18:47:00.000+08:00

hey ppl~!

if u haven realised...my blog's layout has CHANGED!!! {boo 2 if u didn't realise...u beta go get ur eyes checked...hmph.}

m super duper proud o it...celebrates my love 4 dance...got way too many credits 2 trace....so didn't put any in e end...as in 4 e real sweet pretty pics...{if u happen 2 cum across dis site n recognise 1 o e pics as urs...pls email me @ silverangel87@gmail.com...i'll do e necessary acknowledgements den...n thank you!!!}

spent about 2 days 2 perfect e whole thing so ppl...do comment comment hor...e link is below...if u haven realised by now...slap urself.

~happy birthday ven~!

2005-02-22T20:03:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY VENEH!!!

*hugs* *hugs* n more *hugs*...

miz u lah...juz v glad 2 noe tt ur well n HAPPY...!
haha...jia you ok...thou we aren't by ur side...but u can always count on us 1...!!!

hope we DO meet up soon...

love ya n take care~!

~hello kitty clutch bag...

2005-02-19T18:52:00.000+08:00

isn't dis pretty...haha...

~Message: For Girls: What kinds of boy do u like...?

2005-02-19T18:46:00.000+08:00

1. Confident or shy?confident but NOT egostical…urgh…
2. Cute or Cool?cute n cool can…?
3. Chinito or big eyes?eyes tt shine will do…*grinz*

4. Friendly or picky?friendly! …duh…
5. Fashionable or casual?definitely fashionable…juz dun overdo it…ha.

6. Interesting or funny?interesting wif a great sense o humour
7. Mysterious or out-in-the-open?out-in-the-open…I hate guessin games…buay tahan…
8.Intelligent or witty?witty…liddat more fun wad…
9.Conversationalist or more than words?a bit o both…I wan e bez o both worlds!!!
10.Rich or middle class?no biggie…hardworking can liaoz…
11.Romantic or buddy type?romantic…+plus sweet buddy..hehe hehe…
12.Intellectual or sporty?anything lo…
13.Cuddly or has to be a good kisser?both ba…
14.nice teeth or nice eyes?nice teeth n eyes…I’m greedy ain’t i…
15.Understanding or patient?understanding n patient…
16.Musician or athlete?anything can do…
17.Smoker or non-smoker?definitely NON..i can’t stand smokers…
18.Drinker or non-drinker?non…but I’m cool wif e occasional drink or two…
19.Traditional or go-with-the-flow?go-with-the-flow…
20.Adventure seeker or laid back? laidbaq type…
21.Long or short hair?guys short hair lahs!
22. <170cm>definitely 180cm n >
23.Wear glasses or contact lens?anything…
24.Good listener or good teller?good listener n teller…wait…wth is a teller…?!
25. Is there a guy like your type…?i hope so…hah.

~erm...

2005-02-19T18:42:00.000+08:00

You scored as Verbal/Linguistic. You have highly developed auditory skills, enjoy reading and writing and telling stories, and are good at getting your point across. You learn best by saying and hearing words. People like you include poets, authors, speakers, attorneys, politicians, lecturers and teachers.

Verbal/Linguistic

75%

Intrapersonal

71%

Musical/Rhythmic

61%

Bodily/Kinesthetic

50%

Interpersonal

50%

Visual/Spatial

43%

Logical/Mathematical

43%

The Rogers Indicator of Multiple Intelligences
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~guy rules...classique...haha...

2005-02-19T18:39:00.000+08:00

The GUY RULES

1. Learn to work the toilet seat. You're a big girl. If it's up, put it down We need it up, you need it down. You don't hear us complaining about you leaving it down.

1. Sunday sports. It's like the full moon or the changing of the tides! Let it be.

1. Shopping is NOT a sport. And no, we are never going to think of it that way.

1. Crying is blackmail.

1. Ask for what you want. Let us be clear on this one: Subtle hints do not work! Strong hints do not work! Obvious hints do not work!
Just say it!

1. Yes and No are perfectly acceptable answers to almost every question.

1. Come to us with a problem only if you want help solving it. That's what we do. Sympathy is what your girlfriends are for.

1. A headache that lasts for 17 months is a problem. See a doctor.

1. Anything we said 6 months ago is inadmissible in an argument. In fact, all comments become null and void after 7 days.

1. If you won't dress like the Victoria's Secret girls, don't expect us to act like soap opera guys.

1... If you think you're fat, you probably are.
Don't ask us.

1. If something we said can be interpreted two ways and one of the ways makes you sad or angry, we meant the other one.

1. You can either ask us to do something or tell us how you want it done. Not both. If you already know best how to do it, just do it yourself

1. Whenever possible, please say whatever you have to say during commercials

1. Christopher Columbus did not need directions and neither do we.

1. ALL men see in only 16 colors, like Windows default settings. Peach, for example, is a fruit, not a color. Pumpkin is also a fruit. We have no idea what mauve is.

1. If it itches, it will be scratched. We do that.

1. If we ask what is wrong and you say "nothing," we will act like nothing's wrong. We know you are lying, but it is just not worth the hassle.

1. If you ask a question you don't want an answer to, expect an answer you don't want to hear.

1. When we have to go somewhere, absolutely anything you wear is fine...Really.

1. Don't ask us what we're thinking about unless you are prepared to discuss such topics as NASCAR, baseball, the shotgun formation, or monster trucks.

1. You have enough clothes.

1. You have too many shoes.

1. I am in shape. Round is a shape.

1. If you have any questions, please refer to rule #1.

~a prezzie fr sum webby...haha...

2005-02-18T18:32:00.001+08:00

Section 1: The Inner You: Your Real Motivation
You are a freedom-loving, strong-willed, and independent-minded individual, and you insist upon living your own life as you see fit, even if that means ignoring convention and tradition. In personal relationships you cannot be owned or possessed, and while you are willing to share yourself with another, you do not always adjust easily to the emotional give and take of a close relationship. Though intellectually open, you can be enormously stubborn, opinionated, and inflexible on a one-to-one level. You have strong convictions and feelings about fairness and equality, and you try to live by your ideals, but your ideals about how people SHOULD treat one another don't always take into account human weaknesses, differences, and needs. You probably dislike sentimentality and traditional gender roles and "games".

Section 2: Mental Interests and Abilities
You are more of a poet than a rational scientist, for your mind does not function in a strictly logical, linear fashion. The language of music, art, or poetry is natural to you, and you are also able to think in highly abstract and symbolic terms. Translating your thoughts and impressions into concrete, everyday language may be difficult for you at times and consequently you may appear less intelligent or at least less quick-witted and verbal than others. This was especially true of you as a child, and you probably daydreamed a good deal also. You are intuitive and are able to sense what others' thoughts and feelings are, even before they say anything to you. You often form an opinion about a person or situation without much factual knowledge of them, and your impressions are usually correct. You can be somewhat absent-minded and you become so immersed in your own thoughts that you overlook things in your immediate, tangible environment. You are extremely open-minded and believe that anything is possible. Intangible or spiritual forces seem just as real to you as anything in the concrete world. Your imagination and your sympathetic understanding of other people are two of your greatest gifts.

~birthday well-wishes...

2005-02-17T23:35:00.000+08:00

decided 2 log my birthday well-wishes here...lest i lose/spoil my phone again{choy!}...den dere goes those sweet wunderful msgs...

charmaine darling called @ say 2100 2 wish me happy birthday...thanx dear...

amir msged:hey i know its not time yet but i'll be asleep at 12am so just wanna wish u SELAMAT HARI JADI! Yes, that's happy birthday in malay. Your turn to learn..Haha..Anyway may u have an amazing year ahead and hope we can continue to be good friends! Take care and all the best in your future endeeavours! =)

fish called @ 12 midnite: happy birthday...
me: thank you!
fish: zhe yang er yi...
me: huh...?
fish: zhe yang er yi...
me: orh...ok...good nite...cya tmr...
fish later msged me: eh 18 liao must be more mature but cannot be un-dingdong k cuz it's v impt for sanity! d=

amal msged: Hey my dear cheryl gerl..hepi berfdae!!hee..see ya tmr okae..meanwhile,gd nite n sleep well..it'll b a beautiful dae tmr..wif mi around..C= hekhex..

christopher msged: hey happy 18th birthday Cheryl chan...Haha...Hope u get lots of prezzies and may all your dreams and aspirations come true..have a GREAT Day...

liang ru msged: HapPy birthday cheryl

ah lian msged: Cheryl. Happy birthday!

xiu ling msged: happy birthday cheryl! enjoy ur b'dae to the fullest k. love ya!

vanessa msged: ha ha ...Today your birthday ..I remembered ... Wish you a happy birthday ...

_xiao_gu_msged: Knock Knock...
Any1 there?
Hi! I've a delivery 4 U
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=(,,)=(''')
(''''')_('''')
Happy birthday!
Muah2..

rmbed tt febby birthday oso e same as me...msged darlin 2 help me wish her...:
Hehe...Hapi bdae 2 u 2...Muarkz.Muarkz.She say hapi bdae 2u2..Hehe...

aunt lena msged: happy birthday!
Muack!;0

thanx every1!!!

~valentine's day was fun...!

2005-02-14T23:52:00.000+08:00

e sch management decided tt we e students cld turn up in sch in style 4 v day...{dis announcement was last wk 1...}...

amal thot we {as in wad's left o e 28_superstars in tj...}cld cum in colour-coordinated outfits...but she forewarned tt she had no PINK outfits...only e peachy-pink top she got on her b'day which she hasn't worn yet...{haha...its hard 2 imagine amal in anything close 2 PINK cos she hates e colour...like sum random fish i noe...haha...but she still wore tt peachy-pink top anyway...so cheers!!! haha...}

in e end we settled 4 blaq...cos i think tt's e mst basic colour 4 every1 rite...?! well turns out tt lisa cld not find 1...said sth along e lines o "i had 2 dig my cupboard 2 find dis blaq skirt..." farnie fish didn't want 2 wear her zheng jing (proper, preppy, clean-cut...usually fr U2...) clothes..."cos' every1 wld b casually dressed..."

wad each o us wore in e end...:
lisa -- deep-purple crossbaq tank top wif green horizontal stripes wif a flare blaq mini-skirt...blaq pumps...
amal -- e above-mentioned peachy-pink v-nck top wif blaq pants...white sandals...
ghoti -- royal blue mini polo tee...(gee i didn't noe u owned shirts tt actually FIT nicely...haha...) wif blaq bermudas...sandals...
me -- blaq boat-necked tee wif pink horizontal glittery stripes n pink pedal pushers wif pink vertical stripes o diff shades...(will post pic soon...cos i LURVVE e outfit...carissa n shamala said i looked jap...haha...) n pink pumps...(i love my shoes too...juz tt dey juz aren't cut out 4 long-dist walkin...my feet hurt after runnin ard in dem...boo...)

arranged 2 meet lisa @ e 229 bus-stop...haha...4 once dis yr...i was EARLIER than her...think she was worried bout gettin caught by e dumb discipline com 4 her outfit...but e thing is u've already orn it 2 sch...dey can't possibly make u strip rite...? anyway...i love her top...i want more cross-baqs n racer-baq tops...hhmmzz...she had dis huge toys r us plastic bag den i asked me not 2 look n choose...i pulled dis huge flower...e cute toy-kind...wif a cute yellow face n orange-blue petals...lisa made me carry it ard sch e whole day n even when we were outta sch..."e whole pt o e size o e flower was 2 make sure u guyz had 2 hold in ur hand..." amal n fish took 2 it quite well surprisingly...haha...

amal's v day prezzie was a set of precious thots personalised chopsticks...personalised cos she used e alphabits 2 spell out our names n place 28 superstars in e front...n my name was in PINK...haha...she noes me SO well lo...

fish gave me dis hp keychain wif a PINK furry ball attached 2 a ring...n dis long elastic thingey...(i dunno wad 2 call leh...) made knot wif it n wore it as a necklace...dey said it worked 4 me...haha...dual purposes!!!

during gp lesson...dere were 4 guitar song dedications(its dis thing where ppl make song dedications via e guitar club n e guitar club ppl go ard sch, find e person e song was dedicated 2 n sing e song 2 tt person...)fr K1 K2 n michelle, e bruddas, lisa herself, lihui audrey...K1 n K2 each received 1 fr their beaus...i think e whole idea is so sweet siah...think e 2 kailings juz melted lo...haha...

poor mr. chin attempted 2 conduct his gp lesson...but was always interrupted by e song dedications...anyway, it was a boring lesson on our essays...but lisa bein dere livened things up a bit...love ya babe..!

headed off 2 bugis after sch...cldn't leave wif e superstars immediately as i had promised aiting 2 celebrate max's belated b'day wif e dancers...

on e train...lisa mentioned dis..."we hav 2 take neoprints 2day...bcos we hav..."
me: "wad...?" {quizzical look}
lisa: "PROPS!!!"
{amal gives dis wide smile...wacky juz didn't get e 1st time as always...i made dis huge faintin action...*diaozzz...}

yah, true...we do hav props 4 e 1st time...normally we juz posed we our limbs...n almost always...flashing e 'v' sign...can get quite 'the...' @ times...

chose e same machine e other time i went out wif lisa n amal...e 1 which takes 18 shots or 21 @ anytime...we were prepared 4 wad was 2 happen o course...but poor wacky wasn't...(will post e neoprints up soon...once i find sum1 wif a scanner...cos its SO COLOURFUL...posed left rite n centre wif our props: e flowers lisa gave us...e heart-shaped balloons she received...haha...we had a lot o fun siah...)

hung ard @ bugis 4 a bit...n guess who i met...CYNTHIA!!! wow...it was SOOOO long since i last met her man...she was wif hui xian...i asked whether i cld link her blog 2 my blog...

pei-ed lisa 2 buy her camera's SD card n re-chargeable batteries den headed home...

i love bein loved...

~valentine's day...

2005-02-14T01:02:00.000+08:00

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY ppl~!

may every1 get 2 spend loads o quality time wif their loved 1z...
n may all babex receive loads o flowers n guyz receive chocolates...

*muah*

hav fun ppl~!

~weighty issues...

2005-02-13T18:40:00.000+08:00

was moppin my mom's rm...{note when i say mopping i mean e kind where u really get down on all 4s n use a rag 2 wipe...} had 2 move e weighin machine ard so tt i cld wipe e space it previously occupied...den decided 2 take my weight...

OMG...my weight has fantastically fluctuated again...my acceptable weight o 52kg has dropped 2 a mere 48kg...a definite 'unacceptable weight' 2 all pe teachers...

i was like damn shocked lah...wth...its not like i cut down my food portions...i still eat all my 3 meals n eth...e only thing is i dun snack...i finish my meal n tt's it...i dun go ard lookin 4 xtras unless dey r presented in e form o chocolates within my armreach...which pretty much explains y i've been missin out on so many goodies in my growing yrs...but my weight juz literally DISAPPEARED!!! no wunder @ e start o e yr i had about 4 ppl sayin tt i had gone down...o who consisted of xu xuan zhen lao shi n li hui...n yah, i do admit tt my cheekbones look sharper or sth...{i dunno how 2 explain it lah~!} but i didn't expect 2 drop by DIS much lo...

my mom attributed it 2 all e xtra dancin i've ben doin @ home...so, i do prance ard n do my twirls n stuff...but tt doesn't consume SO much wad...?! n its not like i starve myself...i eat when i feel hungry 1 k...

i wanna put on weight...cos i think i'm TOO skinny...but apparently e attempt is FAILING...cos e thing is i've nvr even started on it...on my weight is now goin in e OTHER direction. GREAT.

~so sweet...

2005-02-12T23:54:00.000+08:00

went 2 whompoa 2 hav dis 'finish up e chinese new yr goodies fest'...
dere wasn't any real food dere...{btw...accordin 2 a certain muhammad amir bin ismail, real food refers 2 food where u had 2 sit down n eat...while fake food was e kind u carried ard...i think...}

den my aunts surprised me...n presented me wif a birthday cake...ok...so it wasn't my birthday yet...n e cake wasn't realli a cake...but kueh lapis...i was v touched by their gesture...even my little cousins michelle n samantha gav me their hand-made cards...

photos soon...when i developed den n find sum1 wif a scanner...haha...

~HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR~!!!

2005-02-09T18:47:00.000+08:00

hey ppl~!

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!
hav lotsa fun durin dis period time, enjoy all e new yr goodies n collectin' loads o ang pows...

heh heh...

Ciao~!

~quiz done by lisa...

2005-02-06T14:56:00.000+08:00

haha...chanced upon dis quiz on frenster...did 1 4 lisa dear...n she did 1 4 me in return!!! so cool rite...*hugs* ...
lisa wrote: i help ya do one too k?
1. What's my name? Cheryl Goh Wee Xuan
2. Where did we meet? erm.. i rmb the date.. lets c.. 5th of jan 2004
3. What is my middle name? wee xuan counted?
4. How long have you known me? more than 13months
5. How well do you know me? In a scale of 1-10 8.5?
6. Do I smoke? nah
7. Do I believe in God? nah.. u became a free
thinker..
8. When you first saw me, what was your impression? - erm.. actually i cant rmb.. wahaha.. shy ger.. yeps..
one hu doesn't talk much.. but happen to be the opposite.. haha..
9. My age? turnin 18 in 11 days
10. Birthday? 17feb
11. Hair Color? black
12. Eye color? hmm.. come to think of it i dunno wad color it is.. even after the starin incident.. haha.. i'll go find out n get back to dis qn..
13. Hate me? no
14. What's one of my favorite things to do? shoppin, watchin movies.. listenin to music 98.7fm.. talkin crapz wif mi.. listen to my lame jokes n come up wif even lamer ones.. haha.. catchin up wif all the stars in the world.. hangin out wif ur o~ne.. hangin out wif 28_superstars.. b wif frenz..
15. Do you remember one of the 1st things I said to you? i'm cheryl.. haha.. i think so lah..
16. What's my favorite type of music? almost everythin from 98.7fm
17. What is the best feature about me? ur eyes too. .oso very beeg wad
18. Am I shy or outgoing? she's definitely not shy when u noe her,.. haha
19. Would you say I am funny? yepz
20. Am I a rebel or do I follow all the rules? she's v guai one.. i think i influence her to rebel-sigh-
21. Any special talents? she luv dancin.. n a very gd fren indeed
22. Would you consider me a friend? of cuz
23. Would you call me preppy, slutty, a horny, average, sporty, punk, hippie, glam, nerdy, snobby, silent, raver, or rocker, or something else? i would call u my darling.. =)
24. Have you ever seen me cry? i dun rmb so
25. If there was one good nickname for me,what would it be? t ding dong bell..
26. My weaknesses? choco
27. Have i ever told you I liked you? no but u told me u luv mi.. wahaha
28. Have I ever been in love? erm wif ur husbands.. i lost count of them.. hee..
29. When was the last time we spent time together? ytd...@ sim lim sq n bugis.
30. am i innocent? hmm.. i dun think so.. kana influence by mi i think.. haha
31. My type of movie? almost all kinds.. great movie lover
32. What type of a boyfren/girlfren would i be? a super duper good one
33. Do you think i'm cool? of cuz
34. If we're together, are you proud of me? OF COURSE.. but can u be the guy? haha
35. Am I in Love right know? with ur husbands
36. Have you ever have a crush on me? tell ya a something.. i do.. wahaha..
37. If, in one hour, I'll be gone forever...what will be your last words for me? u r one of the best frenz i could ever haf.. muacks..

~*~hell hath no fury like a woman's scorn~*~

~missin...a lot o things...my phone...my cousin....n memories...:'(

2005-02-06T00:50:00.000+08:00

*sniff sniff*...

blearghz...

feelin v sad now...

stupid me...

ARGH!!!

@ ytd's cny carnival fete au soleil{which, btw means festival o e sun but i dun c e link b/w e sun n cny...but anyway..} i developed a bad case o butter fingers...argh...

was walkin down e stairs fr e trc n msgin my fren when i dropped my phone...it was a MAJOR crash man...i'm tellin ya, eth fell apart...both e front n baq covers...e batteries, keypad n even e sim card oso came flyin out...iwas tremblin when i went 2 pick e pieces...hopin it was juz another drop fr a height 4 my hardy phone n it'll survive e incident...went under LT2 2 fix e various parts baq 2 e phone...developed another serious case o butter fingers again...thank goodness i didn't drop it..was +ve tt if tt happened...e phone wun not make it 4 sure...tried on-in it...but e phone juz wun not detect e sim card...panicked like siao...cos i had 2 rush home 4 dinner @ my cousin's place...a farewell dinner o sorts b4 she leaves 4 aust 2day...was damn worried m mom wld b tryin 2 contact me or sth...

on e way outta sch, saw fish n okkar...blabbed eth 2 her...she was sympathetic...so was jesline n amal....jesline was esp. nice...haven seen her 4 awhile since e last time @ PS...she helped me kopped a free pizza fr the netball ppl's booth...so sweet o her siah...

met up wif lisa n amal 2day 2 do more camera-huntin wif lisa @ sim lim sq...en route fr dere baq 2 bugis...we passed by e temporary tatto shop @ bugis street...was realli tempted 2 do it...in e end me n lisa both got our pink glittery butterfly tattos o diff shades @ e small o our baq...2 4 $12...ok ba...considerin tt its supposed 2 last us 4 2 wks...(will post pix o it soon...haha...)

me n amal den headed 4 parkway parade's nokia care centre 2 c wad dey cld do 4 my phone...was still holdin on 2 tt hope tt e data inside wun not b cleaned out in e repairation process...but i guess it was inevitable...

considerin e time...was damn worried tt i wun b able 2 send my cousin off @ eairport...so i cabbed down...on e way 2 e airport...received dis call fr e nokia care ppl...said tt my phone was BEYOND REPAIR...wtf...was so friggin pissed...called fish striaghtaway 2 yammer yammer n ammer bout how pissed i was...which is V PISSED 4 tt matter...HMPH...

cabfare amounted 2 bout 10 bucks but i guess its all worth it...cos i managed 2 exchange a few words wif her...bo...ruby jie jie is goin baq melbourne n wun b baq till nxt yr...v shiong yr 4 her too...gonna miss her like siao siah...now less 1 person 2 encourage me le...boohoohoo...

wad a sucky day...

1st my phone den my cousin...nearly bawled @ e airport lo...sheesh.

~major mood swingx...

2005-02-02T16:46:00.000+08:00

dunno wad's wif me lately...1 mmt can get damn high...like my usual old self...makin' all those weird actions in clazz...nxt mmt i can feel like juz 4gettin about eth n juz go slp n nvr wake up or sum morbid shit liddat...

crapx lah...i noe i've been slpin @ unearthly hrs...but seriously...which self-redeemin s'pore student wldn't slp @ say 12am + liddat everday single freakin day...?e system requires us 2b so...wad can i say man...to bad i was born here...but wth...so baq 2 wad i was sayin...slpin unearthly hrs n all...den i guess i wasn't lookin 4ward 2 tues @ all...even wif slpin tt late...sumtimes till 1...i juz dun seem 2 keep up wif my sch work...{mabbe e length o my blog entries is 2 blame...but wtf...}tell me how 2 face my conscience n my ever dedicated tutors wif undone tutorials...?! juz felt like dyin...thankfully e tutors weren't in e "goin ard n checkin ur tutorials mode"...so tues ended w/o incident...*says my thanx*

was already feelin damn blardy sick...as in not fall ill kinda sick...juz damn sian...e thot o ponnin dance crossedmy mind not only once but TWICE!!! considerin my absolute love 4 it...dis thot has nvr occurred 2 me b4...so u can imagine how friggin sian i was...

went 2 parkway parade 2 buy e ingredients 4 our clazz's CNY carnival stall...we're sellin cookies n iced jelly btw...was wif K1, K2, michelle n fish...since K1 was e pro so o course she was e 1 who decided wad 2 buy n how much o eth...walked 2 K2's hse...happy is so cute lo...but i still prefer big dogs...i love vicki!!! wah...tell ya...K1 is a pro-est o e pro lo...she called e shots in e kitchen lo...i learnt loads o stuff fr her about cookie-makin fr scratch...yeah...we mixed eth wif our own bare hands ok...{ok...so e mixer did cum in @ e end but we DID put in our labour o love hor...so NO sniggerin!} damn blardy laborous lo...mix until hand tired...den accordin 2 K1...supposed 2 mix till about 1/2 hr if nvr use mixer...*faints*cos she said pastry tt was mixed usin a mixer, its taste can nvr compare wif tt o mixin wif bare hands...i'll keep tt in mind ger...

bout 1550 liddat muz leave K2's hse 2 go sch 4 dance le...e option o ponnin crossed my mind again...but i left anyway...

haha...i'm DAMN GLAD I DID MAN!!!

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@ 1st was still down in e dumps...carissa den said tt she'll pass me amal's n lisa's prezzie fr ven 2day...den i suddenly miss ven like siao lo...juz keep thinkin o her lo...how's she...how's eth...how's she copin...a lot o things lo...den suddenly felt v alone...sch n dance now du hav ven like v empty...miss her like mad...argh...her bitchin, sarcastic remarks, brite beautiful smile, long swingin glossy hair...her v presence makes eth return 2 stability...now tt she's no longer ard...its no longer e same i guess...

e tears came n went...it was all v unexpected...was doin my crunches when dey fell...naturally, it was e silent kind...{u can't expect me 2 sob rite...?! i still gotta maintain my image in fronta my juniors...!!!} after tt i juz tried 2 pull myself 2gether n den it was better...did LOADS o dance techniques...

dere was e piqure turns...i can do e left turn quite well...its e rite side tt i've got prob wif...ms wee said i was weird cos usually ppl hav prob wif their left turn...n i found out dis HUMONGOUS prob!!! i've since developed dis freakin weird swimmin action when i do my pique turns...ARGH!!! its super ugly ok...i was like hysterical lo...die die oso muz correct it siah...i dun wanna swim when dancin'!!! den dere was e chasseys n jetes...i love my right jetes...cos its better n stronger den my left 1...m workin' on it ok...soon i'll b leapin' all over e place instead o walkin'...haha...nxt up was e attitudes...tt 1 i can't do it 4 nuts...like wth lo...how r u supposed 2 do a sorta 1/2 juete in e air man...?! like madness liddat lo...den ms wee said we were 2 do pair work n hav our partner help lift us up while doin e attitude...it worked well 4 me siah...carissa said it was nice lo...i was so happy siah...den dere was e added bonus @ e end o e lesson...i was so close 2 doin a split le...DAMN BLARDY HAPPI siah!!!

ilovedanceilovedanceilovedanceilovedanceilovedanceilovedanceilovedanceilovedanceilovedance

did i mention how much i love dance...?! *grinz wildly*

~crappy week...until surf n sweat...ha!

2005-01-31T22:16:00.000+08:00

dis wk absolutey like sux sux sux 2 e core siah...until o cos...much later in e wk lah...

blardy hell lo....wed durin civics kenna caught by tong 4 wearin accesories 2 sch...damn blardy hell pissed off lah...juz thinkin o it rite now...makes my blood boil!!! actually wilfred told me last wk tt dere will b a spot-check...juz dunno when...but we figured it out 2b on wed...which is tie-day mah...normally e potcheck is conucted during assembly...who noes tt wed...e dm himself came round e clazzrms 2 check on e students...BASKETCASE siah i'm tellin u...actually was sittin dere durin civics ya noe...like any guai student...stupid ass me juz had 2 blardy hell turn my head lah...n dere u hav it...a clear view o my necklace n earrings...boo...kenna called outta e clazzrm...tong asked me "either 2 wear a longer chain or dun wear @ all...n e earrings...only 1 on each ear..." screw him siah...luckily he nvr say my hair length or tt e my other earrings were @ e wrong earhole...like wth...

i told wacky i'll bur down his office when i graduate.hmph.

e math lect test on fri was a goner...i like studied late in2 e nite...cldn't keep my eyes open during lessons lo...it sux 2 slp @ super irregular hours...blearghz...u juz mal-function all over e place...

well @ least e wk turned better 2wards e end...

celebrated amal's belated b'dae @ a bbq organised by her n her sec sch peeps...both whose b'dae oso fell ard e same time...dey prepared a lot o food k...but sad 2 say...not many ppl came...
tyc had 2 cum late lah...figures considerin e time he actually reaches sch...said he was actually ready 2 leave his home den decided tt it was too early n took a nap till say 1500...fantastic siah i tell u...but @ least he cabbed down...but still had e cheek 2 cum empty-handed...lisa came along later...was wearin mascara which tyc mistook 4 sum eyelash extension thing...e guyz juz dun get it...but nvm...met @ wif fish as she was ard e vicinity...she oso thot along e ines o tyc...i tell ya she's a bit hopeless in dis department k...but nvm...haha...

ate 4 a bit, tokked 4 a bit...i tell ya...amal n her frenz r really good cooks ya noe...i can nvr whip out sth like wad i ate ytd like dem...i swear...{i feel inferior...}

wandi came along a bit later...he was rather quiet...lisa said he juz booked out...understan...camp can b v tiring @ times...
crapped a hell lot wif dem...super relaxed siah...it relieved a lot o tension fr me lo...after wed n fri...
invented a new caste system...tyc belonged 2 e lowest caste{duh!} cos he deserved 2 hav his head stuck in e sand wad...haha...dey (lisa n fish) wanted 2 upgrade me 2 e same lvl as him...i den dun leh...i rather remain as doorbell den b an ostrich lo...we r o diff classes k...

fish left soonafter...her parens were fetchin...so sad 4 her lo...restricted until liddat...haiz...

its was actually lisa's birthdae ytd...we(lisa, wandi, amal, tyc n me)headed off 4 tm cos lisa wanted 2 take neoprint...poor amal had loads o mee siam 2 lug home...we kinda bullied tyc 2 carry all e stuff 4 her but he was cool about it...haha...

sad 2 say...e stupid mean neoprint shop ppl @ tm REFUSED 2 let us in...ok, so i admit tt dey were ABOUT 2 close...dere was still another grp o ppl inside n their gate was half-down le...but we PLEADED wif dem siah...we dun choose e machine oso cannot...we fast-fast take oso cannot...but in e end wad amal said oso true lah...ppl oso wanna go home n rest 1...but i noe how badly lisa wanted 2 take lo...den wandi said nvm tmr we all cum wearin e same clothes n take n put e date as ytd's date...haha...lamez siah...

haha...2day SURF N SWEAT DAY!!!

was filled wif anticipation...when i signed up 4 it...i had absolutely no idea wad i was in 4 k...i was like 'since liqian needed a partner n it all seemed like fun by e acco lisa i joined lo...' haha...

liqian wanted 2 run..so i had 2 do e paddling part...e day started wif e men's events first...those kind where e guyz had 2 complete both e land n sea route on their on...wah lau...dey damn cheong siah...all e buff bods wif washboard abs 2 boot...nice.
den i saw 4 myself wad paddling was about: u've gotta lie on dis surfboard like thing n use ur hands 2 paddle urself 4ward, against e waves n eth...in front o hordes o ppl @ e beach...

when i finally came in2 terms wif wad was gonna befall me...i was goin like shit siah wad had gotten myself in2 dis time...i was like damn blardy worried...me who had no prior training b4 dis n hav zero abs can't possibly go against those powerful waves out dere rite?! halo, we're tokkin about e same waves which caused e tsunami...

but since i had already signed up...n i was part o a team wif liqian...i can't possibly let him down...

when my turn came i was super duper LAO KUI ok...2 begin dis race...i had 2 1st flipe board over...a feat which i cld only manage @ e 3rd attempt...n i was so GALD i tell ya...nxt was 2 get myself on e board...another amazing feat i did @ e 2nd attempt...by den all e peeps who had started @ e same time as me were already 2 far in front...den i struggled 2 paddle...e waves were damn friggin powerful siah...bez part was since i had no idea where i was goin i had paddled 2 far away fr e race boundaries i wasted more energy goin baq...blearghz...by den e nxt batch o paddlers had already caught up wif me n i wasn't even past e 1st bend...brilliant rite...but i soldiered on...wad 2 do...i can't possibly swim baq shore...i'd get disqualified...hey but i DID reach e shore eventually n it was another herculean task 4 me 2 drag up e board up e shore...haha...

thing is...i still think e whole thing was fun...n i'm rarin 4 nxt yr 2 cum...anybody wanna join me...?

~happy birthday lisa~!

2005-01-29T23:59:00.000+08:00

HAPPIE HAPPIE BIRTHDAE LISA DEAR!!!

hoped U had a great time 2day...

*hugs*

too bad 4 e neoprint thing k...

but we'll take LOADS o neoprints nxt time...promise...

jia you 4 sch n swimmin' ger...rmb...ur e BEST!!!

...take care...

~n dis...

2005-01-29T10:29:00.000+08:00

Scar -- Missy Higgins

He left a card, a bar of soap and a scrubbing brush next to a note
That said "use these down to your bones"
And before I knew I had shiny skin and it felt easy being clean like him
I thought "this one knows better than I do"

A triangle trying to squeeze through a circle
He tried to blunt me so I'd fit

And doesn't that sound familiar? Doesn't that hit too close to home?
Doesn't that make you shiver; the way things could've gone?
And doesn't it feel peculiar when everyone wants a little more?
And so that I do remember to never go that far,
Could you leave me with a scar?

So the next one came with a bag of treats, she smelled like sugar and
spoke like the sea
And she told me don't trust them, trust me
Then she pulled at my stitches one by one, looked at my insides clicking
her tongue and said
"This will all have to come undone"

A triangle trying to squeeze through a circle
She tried to blunt me so I'd fit

And doesn't that sound familiar? Doesn't that hit too close to home?
Doesn't that make you shiver; the way things could have gone?
And doesn't it feel peculiar when everyone wants a little more?
And so that I do remember to never go that far,
Could you leave me with a scar?

I think I realized just in time, although my old self was hard to find
You bathe me in your finest wine but I'll never give you mine
'Cos I'm a little bit tired of fearing that I'll be the bad fruit nobody buys
Tell me, did you think we'd all dream the same?

And doesn't that sound familiar? Doesn't that hit too close to home?
Doesn't that make you shiver; the way things could have gone?
And doesn't it feel peculiar when everyone wants a little more?
And so that I do remember to never go that far,
Could you leave me with a scar?
Could you leave me with a scar?

~*~hell hath no fury like a woman's scorn~*~

~n dis...

2005-01-29T10:21:00.000+08:00

Unwritten -- Natasha Bedingfield

I am unwritten, can't read my mind, I'm undefined
I'm just beginning, the pen's in my hand, ending unplanned

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten

Oh, oh, oh

I break tradition, sometimes my tries, are outside the lines
We've been conditioned to not make mistakes, but I can't live that way

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten
The rest is still unwritten
The rest is still unwritten

Oh, yeah, yeah

~*~hell hath no fury like a woman's scorn~*~

~happy birthday amal~!

2005-01-27T23:59:00.000+08:00

HAPPIE HAPPIE BIRTHDAE AMAL...

meowy meowy meowy...

hee hee...*winkx*

hoped u had a great time 2day...

take care cat...

*hugs*

~quiz done by _xiao_gu_

2005-01-26T13:58:00.000+08:00

ok...so i said i will blog...like once a wk...n apparently...1 wk ain't up yet...but i juz cldn't resist...

cos _xiao_gu_ did e quiz 4 me too...haha...

01. who are you, what's our relationship:This you donno , i'll kill u.. hehehe.. u r 1 of my darling lah
02. how and where did we meet: one fine day, you just popped out from your mum and say 'hello' ^_^
03. what's my middle name: seems to be changing... to me . forever my darling
04. how long have you known me: ehhhhh... for as long as your age is.
05. tell me one good thing about myself: very obedient.. but...
06. when you first saw me what was your impression: so cute..... muah....
07. my age: aiyo... coming 18 in few weeks.
08. birthday: 17 feb lah...
09. my favorite band at the moment: huh... something h....
10. color eyes: black...
11. do i have any siblings: hmmmmm... 1 bro and 1 o~ne
12. have you ever had a crush on me: no need to...
13. what's one of my favorite things to do: dancing...
14. do you remember one of the 1st things I said to you: goooooo....
15. describe me in 3 words: tall, pretty and too obedient...
16. name 5 things i love: , gundam - jap cartoons with cute guys, your 8 husbands, your o~ne, me
17. do you think i'm good looking(be honest): wat do you think, you have our genes... hehehe
18. how would you describe me to someone: as nbr 15.
19. would you ever date me: anytime
20. tell me one thing you've always wanted to say but never did: I LOVE YOU MUAH...
21: what do you like most about me: being my niece
22: if we could spend a day together what would we do: watever you want and feel like
23: have we ever gotten in a fight: dont think you dare to...
24: do you think we will be friends for at least 3 or 4 more years: halo... it's a lifelong thing here...
25. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it. Darling princess.... cos you are..
26. What do you think my weakness is? too softhearted and get pressurized too easily.
27. Do you think I'll get married? y not..
28. What makes me happy? when u know things aint that bad after all..
29. What makes me sad? fallouts
30. What reminds you of me? anything...
31. If you could give me anything what would it be? a carefree and healthy life
32. When's the last time you saw me? kind of long time ago, last year...
33. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same? sure hope it does
34. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen? hmmm... well u could be a bit stubborn at times..
35. Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you? hmmmm... if i can manage to put this in
36. If I was an ice cream flavor, which would I be and why? shld be strawberry
37. What song (if any) reminds you of me? cant rem the title...
38. If you could change one thing about me, what would it be? your health
39. Would you make a move on me? do i need to?
40. Do I cross your mind at least 1 time a day? of cos...
41. If you could change one thing about our relationship past presentand future, what would it be? that we could be closer and be in contact more..

~*~hell hath no fury like a woman's scorn~*~

~m countin' my blessins

2005-01-21T23:54:00.000+08:00

hey ppl...i'm back!!! not exactly in e pink o health...but close enuff...i guess...
got flu got cough...otherwise i'm alrite...*grinz widely*

rite now...i'm feelin' dis ethereal calmnes about me...dunno y....not tt i'm turnin' god-like or antthin' liddat...dun worry hor...

juz feelin v v blessed rite now...hav nvr felt so loved in my entire life...its almost unbelieveable...like damn surreal or sth...

been in dis kinda giddy state since ytd actually...cos VEN msged...!!!
was like so happie lo...miss her lah...sch's nvr been e same w/o her ard...i juz wish 4 1 thing n tt's her happiness n sanity...every1 deserves tt...esp e 28_superstars man...dey've gotta b e greastest palz eva...

ven, if u're readin' dis...hope eth's been smooth sailin 4 ya...nvr tokked 4 awhile le...realli hope we can meet up soon...*hugs tightly*...n i'm damn glad ur blog's back up cos it sorta reflects e stuff u've een thru n i hope tt u'll rmb tt i'll always b dere 4 ya if u need a listenin' ear k...love ya babe...

minus e fact tt i kinda kenna screwed by tag cos o tutorial, ytd has gotta e 1 o e bez day's in my life...cos e doc gave me a clean bill o health...{i noe dis kinda contradicts wad i juz said...so read on...}haha...she said tt e cyst disappeared...i've got a normal ovary man!!!haha...how's tt man?! so i'm discharged le...which boils down 2 dis fact...dere's still a chance 2 recover or so-to-speak fr dis...so dear, dun lose hope or anything liddat...

went 2 eat jap food cos O~ne was cravin' 4 it...again...i swear, dis sis o mine was previously a jap gal siah...everytime go out wif her juz wanna eat ni-hon-you-ri 1 siah...its not like its damn cheap or sth...argh...

went 2 dis place @ hotel meridien...ogenki sushi bar i think...n i tell u...PLS DUN EVA GO DERE HOR...dey make LOUSY sushi...n i emphasize e word LOUSY...tell u its e worst ever...eat until i so pek chek lo...where got sushi keep fallin' apart 1 rite?!well, e 1z fr dis freakin' place does n u wanna noe y...cos its machine-made 1...sux 2 e core siah...argh...so yah, dun eva go dere no matter how bad ur cravin' is...u'll regret it 1 lo...

haha...den a v farnie thing happened...had conference wif char n kang ren...i noe my darlin previously tell me he v chatty 1...only tasted his full prowess ytd...can u believe dis...i tok 2 him until 2am in e morn lo?! haha...but part o e conversation included me tryin 2 convince 2 cum 4 2day's catchin-up session...dis guy, he's a deep 1...think too much siah...think his life motto is..."life is full o shit..." like tt's damn optimistic...{thing is, not a lot o ppl catch dis as bein sarcastic...which basically translates as sayin' tt ppl dun appreciate my sarcasm lo...boo...}...argued wif him a whole lot over dis topic about life...decided tt he is a great listener lo...but he got a lot o weird ideas lah...den i oso shuo bu guo ta...irritating siah...but anyway...he needs sum1 who thinks along his wavelength lo...i swear he's deeper den e oceanfloor...so if got gal liddat definitely muz intro 2 him lo...haha...but seriously speakin' v hard 2 find lo...{ling u listenin' or not?!}

miraculously predicted tt i'll wake up @ 10am...n i did...met char earlier so tt we can Q 4 a place @ cafe cartel...we juz tokked n tokked...love her siah...juz wish 4 her happiness too...n hope she stays bubbly 4eva...met up e rest o e ppl...christopher dyed his hair black lah...like put wig liddat...haha...xiuling changed her fringe...{n i meant it when i said u look more mature now...}said it was easier 2 handle which i agree totally siah{n i still think my hair is not a teeny-weeny bit sexy...haha)...liangru still v girlishv happy-go-lucky as usual...ah lian still kinda e same...more stressed ba...sch start le wad...n liangru brought dis guy fren along...sum1 called shijun...actually i personally think he quite cute...but i kenna shock a bit tt he's e same age as me lo...looks younger liddat lo...17 @ most siah...think he interested in liangru lah but dunno y he nvr send her home...haha...i swear, i've NO idea where dey get e impression tt me n christopher were even remotely 2gether...tt ah lian hor...likes 2 pepper her speeches wif "ah gong n ah ma" *rollz eyes* help man~! I LOVE MY SINGLE STATUS A LOT LAH!!! n i can't even emphasize a lot enuff siah...hhmmzz...

e food was way too much 2 say e least...cos me n char shared dis crispy combo set meant 4 3 persons...so i said i cld eat a cow...but it juz didn't cum 2 tt sumhow...e chicken sucked 2 e core...but e rest were relatively alrite...liked e potato wedges n fish...e chicken wing too...but had a helluva hard time tryin 2 cut it up in e most lady-like manner possible...try eatin chicken wing wif a fork n knife lah...call it upholdin' my image or wadeva lah...cos i swear i look like a kid when i eat chicken wings; when others use 4 fingers @ most, i utilise all 10...cmi rite?! anyway i've gotta learn 2 make my fork n knife cooperate...its called fine-dining ok...boo...now i feel so freakin' bloated lo...n i skipped dinner ok...i can't even bgin 2 understan chris's appetite, cos he helped e galz start on their food n asked his mom 2 save dinner 4 him...after 2day's lunch, i seriously doubt i can stare @ a full meal in e face again...bleargh...

separated after tt...e galz wanted 2 shop...darlin n me wanted 2 tok more than shop...n after lunch, i seriously didn't hav e mental capacity 2 shop lo...juz felt sluggish...walked ard a bit @ PS den we{as in chris, me n char} walked 2 heeren...walked 4 abit den we{as in darlin n me}decided 2 head back home...

which actually didn't realli materialise cos we stopped @ SP 2 drink coffee n tok sum more...i love tokkin' 2 her siah...but a bit sad we nvr take neoprint in e end...n yah, i maintain tt e 2nd colonge we smelt smells better k...

@ dis pt in time, i think life rox...cos i feel v blessed...i shld do dis more often man...as in reflect more...haha...

here's 2 ghoti, thanx fish 4 tt v sweet quiz u've done...haha...i'm much better now...n u r part o e reason y everything has turned as it is rite now...a v blessed life...haha...thank you 4 eth u've done k...-dis all said fr e bottom o my heart...

i m v thankful 4 eth i hav n hav had...life has been kind 2 me 4 it has surrounded me wif beautiful frenships tt i've grown 2 love n trust...thank god 4 u guyz...

I LOVE MY LIFE!!!

~quiz done by fish...

2005-01-21T22:59:00.001+08:00

for a noisy bell d=

01. who are you, what's our relationship: i am the great vampiric fish and you're my ding dong bell!
02. how and where did we meet: we met in school! You seemed so serious at first… until you started teasing me bout the filing d=
03. what's my middle name: ding dong. Or whoever your husband of the week is!
04. how long have you known me: year odd
05. tell me one good thing about myself: very very trustworthy friend
06. when you first saw me what was your impression: guai kia d=
07. my age: 3. hehe. 17 going to be 18 soon!
08. birthday: you forgot ah? I dun tell you d=
09. my favorite band at the moment: hoobastank? That is.. If they are a band. Sorry leh. I'm v bad. Okay n'sync at least.
10. color eyes: mostly black.
11. do i have any siblings: yes one o-ne d= gee.
12. have you ever had a crush on me: o_O
13. what's one of my favorite things to do: shop. Go ding dong over pink girly stuff. Be totally wacked up. d=
14. do you remember one of the 1st things I said to you: something along the lines of "who are you"? And we discussed Jeux D'enfants though it was soooo sad.
15. describe me in 3 words: ding dang dong. d= hardworking, caring, true.
16. name 5 things i love: all your husbands (that's a lot). Fashion. 28_superstars (you better say yes!) your PINK file! And tabloid gossip x=
17. do you think i'm good looking(be honest): "eh not bad, quite chio". Someone said tt. I totally agree sia!
18. how would you describe me to someone: the tall tall, grinning like a bit siao one? Hehe.
19. would you ever date me: i think he will kill me too.
20. tell me one thing you've always wanted to say but never did: i wrote it for you once
21: what do you like most about me: the way you care so much and do it silently.. And for being so dependable.
22: if we could spend a day together what would we do: slack. Maybe we'll pon something, watch a movie and shop. HAHA.did i just say that?
23: have we ever gotten in a fight: no!!!
24: do you think we will be friends for at least 3 or 4 more years: yep yep yep.
25. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it. ding dong. You know why what.
26. What do you think my weakness is? stress a bit easily.
27. Do you think I'll get married? i hope you would, happily.
28. What makes me happy? guilt-free shopping x=
29. What makes me sad? those things that make you jaded…
30. What reminds you of me? anything girlish. Gosh!
31. If you could give me anything what would it be? a carefree life.
32. When's the last time you saw me? thu… at the gate. /= sure hope you're better now!
33. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same? j'ai envie d'être les meilleures amies toujours.
34. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen? well…unless i'm trying to discuss something like why pink is awful.. d=
35. Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you? when LJ finally works..
36. If I was an ice cream flavor, which would I be and why? i can remember… strawberry dream!
37. What song (if any) reminds you of me? Hoobastank - The Reason
38. If you could change one thing about me, what would it be? your health.
39. Would you make a move on me? *coughs
*40. Do I cross your mind at least 1 time a day? haha i wouldn't worry about that
41. If you could change one thing about our relationship past presentand future, what would it be? *shrugs*

~*~hell hath no fury like a woman's scorn~*~

~m still sick...bleargh...

2005-01-15T20:21:00.000+08:00

m still sick...

e freakin' fever came n went...

now i'm back 2 38.0 degress celsius...how nice...

n e best part is...i wasn't productive @ all 2day...excpt 4...

yupz...i CUT my hair...
ok so i trimmed it...thing is, i can no longer tie it up like i used 2...but e length's still dere...{v sorry if i'm not makin any sense here...but if u c me wif my present hair...u'll noe y...}

i didn't stick 2 my old lop-sided bangs...nor did i lengthen e life-cycle of my kinda-straight 1 tt resembles e stright-japanese-sch-gal kind...

i had a totally new 1...its basically an improved version o e lop-sided bangs, juz tt my present 1 streches all fr 1 end 2 e other...{ok...i'm super bad @ explainin things...cos i juz complicate matters...which totally explains y i can't b a teacher 4 nuts...} thing is...i think i look funny...but i'm not makin a big fuss outta it...my sis is...@ least 2 her own fringe...{she cut hers too...}

n e hair-dresser said tt i hav super dry hair...sth tt has been pted out 2 me eveytime i visit e hair-dressers' n i shld use hair-cream or wadeva thing tt's available on e market tt's supposed 2 help rid my hair of its dryness... n he oso said tt i shld style my hair n tt i look good wif messy hair...

...messy hair...so i'm supposed 2 go 2 sch wif messy hair?! like wth?!

1st things 1st...i mite get caught now juz 4 not tying up my hair...

n now i'm literally rarin' 4 francis tong 2 catch me 4 my i-juz-rolled-outta-bed hair...WOW.

thing is...i juz mite take his advice...lolx...

as o now...i can't wait 4 cny...cos i get 2 wear e clothes i bought...
cos i think e outfits go wif e hair now...haha...